Monday, October 18, 2004this blog is officially closed.relink please everyone. click here. `there is no finish line 12:15 AM Saturday, October 16, 2004IM BREAKING DOWN DAMN BADLYI CANT TAKE THIS ANYMORE CAN YOU PLEASE GIVE ME A CALL LOVE, MIN- `there is no finish line 3:38 PM Thursday, October 14, 2004i know i cant be that far from youif we're both looking on the same side of the moon I LOVE MR HAMID :D haha he actually dozed off invigilating our higher chinese paper alright. yeah and i actually took tsemins paper to copy (: the whole scene was damn hilarious alright, we were laughing like hell. -looks at tsemin (: everyone was trying all means and way to copy ? HAHA :D yeah the paper was like super hard, mdm shi is out to kill. amaths paper two tomorrow, and we would go straight down to sentosa right after. i cant wait to bid this whole crapped up lifestyle exams introduced farewell. im really gonna enjoy myself after tomorrow, i feel so deprived (: ah i just remember theres chinese olevels really soon ? dammit. heck it, lets see. its sentosa tomorrow, captains ball on saturday, and on sunday OH MY GOODNESS im going out with this guy from class. dont quite look forward actually, but we would be catching white chicks so thats kinda cool. mondays the mega shopping spree plus movie date with the girlies, tuesdays theres classes and wednesday a cut hair plus buffet plus shopping spree with my lover karo (: this is when life starts darling (: `there is no finish line 5:28 PM Tuesday, October 12, 2004tell me, is life just a playgroundDAMN AMATHS, im so bloody gonna fail it. its like super difficult alright, and i think the only one question i could do was the seven mark sets question, fullstop. eighty mark paper mind you, and i left the whole last page wonderfully blank, BLANK. -screams and pull hair out uh huh and like after the paper the first thing i did was to go get a tub of icecream from the supermarket. im wolfing down spoonfuls of them right now. okay at least im feeling slightly better. OH WELL, youre such a loser min. and karo told me something during the paper break :( i shall think about little fudge then, the thought of him makes me happy. ILOVELITTLEFUDGE ! LITTLE FUDGE + ICECREAM = HAPPY :D haha back to mugging shrine, ciao. `there is no finish line 2:53 PM Friday, October 08, 2004cant you see i want you by the way i push you awayits so evident isnt it, stress is like written all over everyones face. take care all you nervewrecks, uh i cant handle myself to start off with, HAHA. yes im freaking out damn badly. now smile, (: thinking about it i kinda love exams in the hall now, i like the smell of the air con ? (: and his backview :D i like seeing him slip his hand into his pocket while he scibbles his scripts, its nice. and hes absolutely cute when he plays paperballs (: HAHA. well, papers so far were pretty alright. as in i didnt finish social studies and chinese composition, left pretty lot of blanks for biology and crapped english composition , yeahh. i cant wait for after exams, we got it all planned out. friday - SUN SAND SEA ; they call it SENTOSA baby ! :D monday - MOVIE AND MEGA SHOPPING SPREE ! :D dads bringing us out for timsum dinner later, i better get my hands started on some revision. still, MUG HARD EVERYONE :D NEW TEMPLATE ! :D the pictures so sweet aint it, it reminds me of something sometime ago. BYE BYE `there is no finish line 6:35 PM Friday, October 01, 2004what have i doneyou seem to move on easy MY LIFE ; SCHOOL, BOOKS, COFFEE, LATE NIGHTS MUGGING :( what a lifestyle oh boy, it sure is sickening. another two plus week min, hang on there, hang on there. suddenly im freaking out damn badly, gosh. END OF YEARS lahh i hate exams, condemn them. hurr ! and im like no where near half way through revision ? -forced smile yes yes, im in love with this pretteh little cigarette case wallet :D i hope it doesnt disappear before the time i go down and get it, its nice :) oh hey, nellys my place is nice too :) im pretty happy today ? ive no idea, woohoo. alright, i gotta go wrap up revisions for social studies and kick off with biology. hell yeah, i love studying. ALL THE BEST GUYS, MUG. and those pictures of us that came rehearsing in my mind paint a beautiful, beautiful portrait of us i love the sweet tingling feel that wraps around my heart baby, i think i miss you. `there is no finish line 9:56 PM Saturday, September 25, 2004nothing but a dead memoryof what it was but cant be cause im hanging on every word you say boo ! (: alright alright, havent been updating at all this while. lifes a bull, what more can i say. end of years are like super round the corner, tests are becoming a everyday thing, homeworks piling, its barely breathable. but i so needa buck up alright, i cant for hell fail anymore. english oral was alright, think i pretty confident for it somehow. its amusing to see how jinshun prepares for his oral speech (: HAHA. i like miss ngoh, shes the only teacher that i felt so calm taking oral with. im at tsemins place now, we almost died doing the cmes powerpoint presentation slides, -faints. shes by my side now, we are eating strawberry pocky (: oh yeah tsemin and jeraldine made up a poem for zhen just, and here it goes kong xu de xing, zhi you tau ni guan xin wen rou de ai, zhi you tau ni pei zai gu zhi de xing ge , zhi you tau ni fu he liu xia de lei shui, zhi you tau ni ban shui to be continued-, -winks at zhen (: oh well, this would officially be the last time i blog till after end of years. its gonna be hardcore mugging (: nerd. wrote this poem the other day during history class (: just let me bleed, shed this haunting pain its only then my heart wont feel this wreck let me cry, till these tears run dry for all these pains i kept beneath the old judebox of dying melody hurts me so this memory of you i escape my wounds wont let me still i ponder to why this angel ; crafted to an image of perfection chose to puppet me to playwright his horror play leaving me a suitcase full of stubborn heartaches which refuses to fade over time and this angel of mine flew back to his heavens where he belong playing his harp singing his songs and never, never would he look back down to the world he left behind or let his eyes set upon the girl he once loved, the girl he destructed. so let me bleed, in excess you tore my feelings like i had none mindy- THIS IS A GREAT SONG, THIS IS A GREAT SONG, THIS IS A GREAT SONG, THIS IS A GREAT SONG, THIS IS A GREAT SONG, THIS IS A GREAT SONG, THIS IS A GREAT SONG, THIS IS A GREAT SONG, THIS IS A GREAT SONG, THIS IS A GREAT SONG :D breathing ; lifehouse (: im finding my way back to sanity again though i dont really know what im going to do when i get there take a breath and hold on tight spin around one more time and gracefully fall back to the arms of grace i am hanging on every word you say and even if you dont want to speak tonight thats alright, alright with me cause i want nothing more than to sit outside heavens door and listen to you breathing is where i want to be im looking past the shadows of my mind into the truth and im trying to identify the voices in my head God which ones you let me feel one more time what it feels like to feel alive and break these calluses off of me one more time cause i am hanging on every word you say and even if you dont want to speak tonight thats alright, alright with me cause i want nothing more than to sit outside your door and listen to you breathing is where i want to be i dont want a thing from you bet youre tired of me waiting for the scraps to fall off your table to the ground i just want to be here now cause i am hanging on every word you say and even if you dont want to speak tonight thats alright, alright with me cause i want nothing more than to sit outside heavens door and listen to you breathing is where i want to be i am hanging on every word you cause i want nothing more than to sit outside heavens door and listen to you breathing is where i want to be tsemin just burped, shes going loones. its scary. she just attempted to strangle me. shs very weird. OKAY so till exams are over, bye world. `there is no finish line 6:00 PM Thursday, September 16, 2004the girl in meshes been abused her soul, weak from heartache shes become paralysed in this game of vindictive love where a part of her is ripped from the core of her soul she yearned to end her life with a pretty pistol - that seemed to fit her hand perfectly or perhaps even just to fall to her death from building tops she dreamed of her death oh, for the girl in me shes tired of wishing on the brightest stars the stress caused a mess in her head frustration blended with complexities of love she felt emotions inside of her boil over what could she do her eyes flashed angrily; ready to kill the angst and hatred she felt could only be taken out on herself nobody understood only her slashed wrists knew her agony only they knew my hearts been bruised beyond recognition its blue – cold from neglect i felt a strange sort of feeling it seemed to ache yet flutter with ecstasy knowing youre around you leave me completely breathless – im almost suffocating suddenly everything seems too much to take my soul weary from heartbreak i wanted to embrace my suicidal death youre the one pushing me nearer to my death yet pulling me so close to life again just by your mere existencei was being thrown around by you – unconsciously the effect you have on me, so violent it drives me insane why do i even feel for you tell me – why? `there is no finish line 6:14 AM Wednesday, September 15, 2004your memory is like a ghostand my heart is its host okay so school has officially reopened, and it less than three weeks to final years, -screams. im gonna go bonks from all the stress and pressure, its nuts. and i really gotta pull my socks way damn up, im cant cant fail any subjects for final years boy, it would be hell. todays nice, im happy (: well, its weird. lessons were a breeze, i slept so many times during english that miss hia couldnt be bothered to get me up to listen. yeah and mrs thomas was on leave so we just spent the whole period listening to jeraldines nyaa tales ? physics was fun, tsemins a crap. we took photos with my cam. the best part was after school ! (: -looks at tsemin sherri jeraldine we went over dover playground and played like some spastics primary school kids, haha. played swings, mhmm ! then jeraldine and i were guarding our royal palace ? haha sherri is the royal entertainer and tsemin was the royal servant (: haha we really crapped a hell lot, laughed till our sides hurt this much. yeah then we took photos ? haha then im supposed to be the sexy mama, like i dont know how, -forced smile. kay then we finally came up with the chem project story, we wrote it on the sand (: then seven eleven ! im the icecream lady (: haha, got a cornette classics. yada, went back school. it started pouring like monkeys, cabbed to cell with zhen tsemin and pris. cell was alright, beelians so funny. i cant wait for church camp at the end of the year ? (: ah josephines boyfriend picked her up after school today ? hes so so cute ! :D –smiles at jo, haha. we finally cleared up, what my heart wants to say. BROWNIE ; OUR FINAL GOODBYE- well, lets see. it was on this years valentines that we met ? and its all been a whirlwind of almost everything. from going outs to conversations, i wont deny i had the factor of fun but it never had been anything more than that. everything you did for me, done for me, i appreciate it. having to hush me up when i cried my heart out over the phone, paying for my movies, cabs, clothes, meals blahblah, showering me with gifts. ive let you down, but this heart of mine just dont feel. like i said, i do have someone in mind and thank you for supporting my decision to wait for him. if i could turn back time, perhaps i wished we never met. IM SORRY- ladeedums, im tired. but before i go.. give me a O, give me a R, give me a E, give me O, and you get :D haha thats so lame, cheap thrill. –slaps myself oh and tomorrows the getting back of report book, someone kill me please. spell it capital and bold font size 72, doomsday. SLASH IT- `there is no finish line 6:42 AM Sunday, September 12, 2004SCREAMSon the phone !! :D `there is no finish line 2:48 AM i cant sleep i cant freaking sleep, its like 0103am lahh. im on the labtop, chinese worksheets are the most horrible thing one can ever do. we are talking online now (: oh yes i got my pink roxy tee today, so its off my wishlist :) SUPREMACY- `there is no finish line 1:53 AM |