Saturday, July 31, 2004
day after day im more confused
yeti look for the light in the pouring rain
you know thats a game that i hate to lose
and im feeling the strain, aint it a shame

the mood for family day was kinda thrashed when it started pouring in the morning ? uh huh, but thank God the sky cleared in the late morning :)
cabbed to school cause i had this whole lot of plasticware to carry, then two very nice ncc guys helped me carry it to the store. went up, got the booths in shape and stuff. decided it was far too boring so i grabbed nessie and we toured the whole place. bought oreo cheesecake ! :) the place wasnt really up and happening that kinda thing, the atmosphere is just weird :
BUT the chapelton was great, super nice. totally rocks my socks :)
saw raymond, pulled him to our nirvana footprints store, saw sista, did the same :)
haha yeah we kinda gorged ourselves with food, bought corns, tea eggs, lagsagne, pizza :\ hurr.
queued damn long for the haunted house, uh huh, realised our tastes for guys are really different. haha we kinda had this 'spot shuaiges spree'. she will be like 'this one cute !', and im like no. i will be like 'that one shuai !' and she will give me that stupid diao face. haha then she finally went, 'uhhh this one THEN shuai' -pointing down.
and woohoo, she meant RITIK BHATNAGAR. erm, -wipes sweat.
the haunted house was super scary boy. it lasted barely a minute, and all it had was girls letting their long hair down walking around screaming, people suddenly grab you out of no where and its the end. four bucks ? fortyfive minutes wait ? what the hell.
then it was my shift, cut bananas, deepfry the fries, cook cup corns. tiring but really fun ? :)
ling was like my corn tester, haha i would feed her corn to
ice cream was a total soldout, sales was doing damn good.

then slacked at the top personale room with tsemin for sometime, cleared up blah blah blah.
went for dinner with huizhen tsemin jeraldine and miss lee, haha grreat time yes ? :)
and the three wonderrful people just HAD to tell miss lee about my tutor, dammit.

rright, im shagged out.

i wanna get lost in your rock and roll and drift away ;


`there is no finish line
9:17 PM
Friday, July 30, 2004
we were meant to be
supposed to be
but we lost it

gosh the room reeks of durian, -pinches nose.
i totally cant stand the smell of that stinky fruit, its a turnoff. ultimate yuck.

was on the phone with tsemin last night, till like 1130 trying to solve emaths questions. haha we both sounded as if we were gonna fall asleep anytime that kinda thing.
kay so emaths test was the first period, screw it screw it screw it, i very well think i might fail this one :(
-screams and cover face
tingxie is a guanrantee fail boy, i didnt even flip open my shou ce last night. was on emaths the whole time you see, die. haha yeah played this chinese snake and ladder game thingie, used jellybeans as our counters ? uh huh and when mdm shi said game over we all just picked up our counters and popped them into our mouths :)
yes yes, i just have to say this alright.
was looking through linus file during r&d and guess what, theres this mc from guanbo which is states in capital and bold at the top, SHANGHAI MENTAL INSITUTE :/ :\ : erm ..

kay after school was a total mad rush, seriously. -looks at tsemin
there was freaking lot of things that got to be done for the cca booths. shuttling from general office to top personale room to staff room to hall is no joke, tsemin and i almost died ?
we had to do everything ourselves cause miss song had two meetings on and its crazy.
haha nigel and i were fighting over whose trophies should be where, had a fun time hanging up the nets too, FLING A LITTLE MORE :) haha
everything was in place finally, wenta help out with the class.

went around school hanging icecream posters with lejing ! :) yikes i totally love the time, us yakking, crapping, laughing -looks at lejing
uh huh its really nice being with her, i loved our chats !
then bussed home with her, guess shes at chia place now melting chocolates.
I LOVE YOU CHING :)

kay i gotta go get chem worksheet done, ive yet to hand up by the way :)
im excited about family day, mhmm !

just tell me what to do ;


`there is no finish line
9:37 PM
Thursday, July 29, 2004
cause obviously hes out of my league
im wasting my time
cause he will never be mine
and i know i never will be good enough for him
 
-looks up
how, how true boy :( , obviously ; mcfly
im kinda re-addicted on hiphop, blasting on fire ; lloyd banks and 99 problems ; jay-z :)

yes now for today, my dear nabilah ali is finally back in school, uh huh my mr firhad go-ga-ga partner. haha see girl im kinda dont fancy him as much, yeah and his attitude during the start of bio lesson stinks, but seeing him demonstrating the reflex theory chuckles me up :)
haha like half the physics period was spend outside miss ong class, LIMTSEMIN AND JERALDINE KOH better watch out. like what, they were teasing me the whole time lahh, about what happened during tuition, hurr !
right i seriously didnt know whats with tsemin and i during class after, we were kinda gigglish and all ? and stupid yima kept trying to lie on my shoulders, i repeat, NOTHING OF THAT SORT HAPPENED. -stares at her
then amaths, nat practically ran out of class the minute miss lee said thank you class. things a guy would do for food ? yes.
mee rubus for recess ! :) haha -looks at tsemin
we love the mee rubus from the malay stall, its damn good trust us.
had compre test during english, pretty fine.
uh huh, discussed the time slots and everything with tsemin. then red cross and band kept changing their people lahh, got kinda irritated cause theres like other nineteen ccas to see to and they were super so indecisive :/
australian maths test. haha im bound to get the participation certificate lahh :)
cca meeting in the top personale room. whatever, miss song was half an hour late ? :/
yeah so we briefed the people first and got them to discuss the settings. gosh, like tsemin opened the metal cupboard and the red cross trophy broke ? :\ you gotta see yuanhaos face. mann, being a ever so faithful red cross youth cadet, he burst out of the personale room, wenta his red cross room and got people over to fight for him : haha. hes one serious lad i tell ya, i was like telling him to get some pictures of red cross in action and he asked me whether i want those banners at the singapore red cross youth headquarters, he can go down and get it. haha like dont need ya, its just a simple cca exhibition, RELAX :)
uh huh, then stayed back after the meeting with tsemin at the room to get some stuff settled.

kay theres emaths test tomorrow, i gotta pass this one seriously.
mr ganesans gonna demote me to 3C if i fail to :\ now, scream.

min must pass emaths
 
:) burn midnight oil !
right, and goodbye my 7200, its virtually impossible to get it back. 
curse be the person who picked it up and kept it, its my phone.
kay i gotta go ring up all the cca in charges, bye world.
 
i promise ;


`there is no finish line
8:40 PM
Wednesday, July 28, 2004
part of me wont agree
cause i dont know if its for sure
suddenly suddenly i dont feel so insecure anymore

taking my daily dosage of she will be loved ; maroon 5 :)
nothing particularly rocked today. the same old thing.
was busy going around collecting stuff for the booths and my dear tsemin just slacked around.
uh huh she better get the form typed out by tonight or we will be screwed by miss song tomorrow.

so was caught up with those stuff that i was late for the debate thingie. stupid miss luah was by the door staring at me with THAT LOOK. im like whatever alright, -roll eyes.
debate was interesting, i liked johnstons speech. guess its really what he said that i gave my vote to the proposition :) so go ahead and hang humans, baby.

had tuition with class tutor, my very first lesson with him ? yeahh had it at the courtyard, it all started fine till he became erm a little touchy ? : er i cant really stand guys putting their arms around me, pinching my cheeks, hugging me that kinda thing ? :/ :\ well.
but i promise ill do well for emaths test this friday. haha like he had his hands on my shoulders, held me real tight and went ' mindy, tell me you will do well' at least ten times, okay i will ya.

then rushed off for cell, watched the passion ? :)
the shows really draggy, fell asleep at certain parts. plus its all in hebrew language, and subtitles are hard to read with black shadows moving across the screen all the time. its pirated you see, get my point ? haha
but the part where jesus was tormented is real sad, bloodeh gruesome.

grreat, mum just said she isnt planning to get me a new phone anytime soon, freak it.
am still mourning the lost of my beloved 7200, it contains my super nice pictures, my mean-so-much-to-me messages and all ? :(
I WANT MY PHONE BACK.

smash ; talk to me

every night i hear you cry
dont you wanna tell me why
im afraid of waking up without you
many misunderstand but when i reach and touch your hand
i cant feel you anymore
 
you see my million miles away from me tonight
baby but im right beside you
 
talk to me thats what my love is here for
cant stand to see those tears in your eyes
id do anything that takes to make it right
baby talk to me
even if its just to say goodbye
 
whenever so hard to say
whatever makes you turn away
cant be any worse than i imagine
you gotta tell me what you need from me
so hold you close so set you free
cause i just wanna see you smile again
but i cant help you if you keep me in the dark
open up your breaking heart and
talk to me
thats what my love is here for
cant stand to see those tears in your eyes
id do anything that takes to make it right
baby talk to me
even if its just to say goodbye
 
i dont know how to ease the pain youre going through
baby tell me what to do
 
talk to me
thats what my love is here for
cant stand to see those tears in your eyes
id do anything that takes to make it right
should i hold you close so set you free tonight
baby talk to me
even if its just to say goodbye
 
take care grandpa :)
 
please dont try so hard to say goodbye ;



`there is no finish line
9:16 PM
Tuesday, July 27, 2004
i drove for miles and miles
and wound up at your door
ive had you so many times
but somehow i want more

this girl is experiencing servere despression ;

firstly her wonderful sista and boyfriend were doing God-knows-what on the bed early this morning so terribly loud that it woke her up at boy, ONE AM :
uh huh then school was thrashed up cause she couldnt stop thinking about her missing handphone, plus her cute eyecandy called in absent today :(
moods rubbish, shes tired from the lack of sleep, and theres so much about the cca booths she got to see to, stuff she gotta prepare for the meeting miss song. plus writeups for the coffee project and the marvellous emaths test mr ganesan insist she does well for.
she barely smiled.
lessons are crappified, need i say more.

and lovely jamie and tsemin just had to draw her face with coloured markers, making her look freakish.

shes worn out.
she wants her medication, her 7200.

bring all back to you ;



`there is no finish line
6:40 PM
Monday, July 26, 2004
sometimes a forbidden glance
would give my heart away
the light that rekindled our romance
just flicker through the grey
 
i LOVE today in all.
he got himself a new hairdo, -squeezes nabis arm tight
SO DUPER CUTE! :) haha

bio kinda sucked, mr firhad was pmsing big time. it was kinda a turn off, i dont fancy him as much now :  haha and he looked really cute trying to play the piano ? :) -smiles
then pe, the games kinda screwed :/ i really dont like basketball.
chemistry, i take back my words when i said i like mole concept a few weeks ago, like hell no, its so complicated, things only seantaysianghong understands. -shakes head
recess then history, watched this video clip on the start of world war, the aircons blasting, brrr.
haha and hiphiphooray mdmshi didnt come today so its kinda a free period. and yes im seriously so stuck on she will be loved ; maroon 5 :) -looks at eileen
lifeskills, cant really remember what we did.

met priscilla song with tsemin after school, she put us overall in charge for the family day cca booths. and wow theres a lot to do, from logistics to planning :/ hurr so the week ahead is gonna be kept busy. coupled up with tests and homework, lifes gonna be a bull.

theres lots to be done today
>amaths questions
>emaths questions
>physics workbook
>sort out history file

my eyelids are kinda heavy boy.
and yes i so hate yesterday night, yes what xinyi says is right, messaging such a person is a totally waste of money.

what the hell, HELL.
I LOST MY HANDPHONE .
oh boy oh boy, this is bad.
called up comfort cab just to report, they havent get back to me as yet.
pray hard that it will be found please, its barely a month old and i so love it.

i have no mood or whatsoever to blog on.


`there is no finish line
9:08 PM
Sunday, July 25, 2004
like moving pictures in my head
for years and years they played
 
morning world.
right, yesterday was nice.
mhmm, lunch was interesting, chow in is someone who can really be a superb hearttalker.
then went for church, haha pastor had this terrible sorethroat lahh so half the time i was trying to figure out what he was trying to say that kinda thing.

then went down kallang to meet xinyi nicolette and gina :) dinner with the girlies at macdonalds. mhmm, had a grreat time yes ?
ELPAM :)
-looks at nicolette and gina
MIK :)
-looks at xinyi
haha yeah was laughing so hard that i lost grip of my icecream cone and it landed on the floor :

yupp mum came to pick me up after that, went for dinner :/ ahh was already so full boy.
so in the end i ate two portions of dinner, felt so fat :\ got home, did work till i fell asleep.

so thought up of what i wanna do for this day. gonna devote it totally to studying, now, say wow :)
yes and i do mean it, i wanna get the following done.
> emaths notes and revision for fridays test
> chem notes and revision for wednesdays test
> finish up whatever homework there is

I LOVE STUDYING :)
-looks at karo and nessie
haha great, mindys turning into a full-time nerd.

off to hit the books, HOHO :)

so tell me now its ever gonna change ; 


`there is no finish line
9:06 PM

 oh yes yes
to everyone going for obs tomorrow ;
TAKE CARE :)
especially my dearest laughing machine ; GOHHUIZHEN
and my sweet punk butch aka MRS MIKE ONG ; SHERRIANNECHOOHUIYI
mhmm, dont get chased by wild boars, bitten by mosquitoes and stang by hornets over at pulua ubin kay :)
i want you girlies back in a whole :)

mhmm so have lotsa fun girls, and again take care. much love !
-waves


`there is no finish line
9:28 AM
Saturday, July 24, 2004
so get back, back, back to where we lasted
just like i imagine
i could never feel this way
so get back, back, back to the disaster
my hearts beating faster
holding on to feel the same
 
its 837am this saturday morning. mann its a sin to get up this early on a weekend.
listening to memory ; sugarcult :) super nice.
 
i lovedd last night to bits ? :) mhmm ! messaged till pretty late. but aargh i fell asleep while waiting for his reply which came three hours later ...  I LOVED LAST NIGHT :) haha
 
hmm am at apple.com, viewing iPods. the iPod mini looks really cute, the original iPod looks fashionably sleek. am fond of the pastel pink iPod mini one :) gosh its so damn nice. -squeals
 
meeting chow in for lunch later, probably pop back school first to hand up mdm shis homework which was due yesterday or she will scream on monday.
gonna have a nice morning bath so ciao :)
 
i love grandpa :)
 
can i be your memory ;


`there is no finish line
9:30 PM
Friday, July 23, 2004
and finally the silence
looking out looking back across the sky
trying to find a meaning
knowing that i just left it all behind
still i smell a lingering softness

haha got down 74 this morning and looked up and guess what, mr firhad was walking in front of me :) haha he wore this really nice shirt today and his bag is very nice, -looks at tsemin.
right, assemblys kinda long, miss lims rantings and what else.
emaths, haha tsemin got so irritated but mr kungs voice, she finds it super unbearable. like each time he talks, shell go yuck and give the very wrinkled face ? :/
chinese, like we were given two hours to do up the mahjong paper and at the end of it we just wrote four words on it ? mdm shi was like :
then english debate in the auditorium. was freaking pissed off with jeanluah :/ like what the hell alright, everyone was doing work and she just so had to pick on me.  forget it.

recess, everyones going googoogaga over mike ong, uh huh. hes making recess interesting as in we get free shows ? then chem. now i really find sitting beside sean pressurizing. erm like he finishes questions when im barely even halfway through ? its kinda demoralising when someone goes 'i got the answer!' when youre struggling to even remember whats the molarity formula that kinda thing :\
r&d, haha we wanted to laser print our cups with the design we came up with but hoho, we kinda forgot we got the typewriter in our group yeah ? -smiles at chialing

uh huh then went around selling cookies with sherri tsemin and babyy. sales were pretteh good, like less than twenty minutes we sold the whole bag :) went learn@fairfield with karo and nessie to do up work, mhmm then training.
reaction drills, then three sets of suicide :/ oh man, kills.
did a few new drills, then down the court. coach shenghui was kinda bad mood today ? uh huh.
oh yeah haha mr lee made the soccer boys sing SAN ZHI LAO HU while they did their butterfly split :) haha. 

got back, messaged :) oh yeah last night too ! -double smile
-bleams
haha he made my day in all :)

listening to come on ; ben jelen, nicenice.
alright alright, im off.
 
and my heart misses ;


`there is no finish line
9:50 PM
Thursday, July 22, 2004
youre falling out of reach
defying gravity
i know youre out there
somewhere out there
 
emaths fieldtrip was nice, had currypuffs and goreng pisang instead of kaya toast in the end.
biology, ahh mr firhad was damn cute ! :) -looks at nabi
physics was crap, i starting not to stand joanna ong. mhmm he looks cute when he sleeps :) -nudges tsemin
amaths, sherri and i were writing real dumb stuff to each other ? haha dots and Xs ! -smiles at sherri :)  then recess, english debate was good ? our class won ! haha didnt kind expect it cause i personally felt the opposition was stronger.
orca, hell crap. miss luah booked sam and me cause of a overdued library book :/ hurr !

went library with le jing, i love that girl and her silly little laughters ! :) yeah and the noodle stall auntie is so super unhygienic yes ? -smiles at adultress
then amaths test, spell disaster for me please.
i screwed the whole paper up damn badly.
-screams
i know it was pretty easy.
i know it was scorable.
but dammit i just freakked out for nuts, its gonna be a fail for me, again.
hoho, freaking good luck min -shaky smile

training, did runs, skipping, ball drills and that was it.
studied in class with nessie :) my nerd club partner !
haha yeah did the physics graph, started on bio and history worksheet.
nessie was doing her physics worksheet or something, went over dover to get mashed potatoes.
glenn said he saw him there ten minutes after we left ?
and yes glenn looked darn cute playing disco on my phone, haha -looks at nessie

haha everyone said i looked so professorish today, with my specs that is.
am gonna do without it tomorrow, my eyes are kinda fine already.
and yes, this very nice guy from class offered me free tuition for all eight subjects :) well not exactly free lahh, the so called fees was a movie date with him. think we are starting it tomorrow or something, mhmm.

i need to get my hands on some work, so bye.

the ones you love most will always be the ones who pay.

get out right now ; 


`there is no finish line
9:38 PM
Wednesday, July 21, 2004
i just conned jocelyntanyiling into the trick game mel sent me :) bingo, revenge is sure sweet.
 
-smiles at joce
 


`there is no finish line
8:36 PM

 these eyes have seen no conviction
just lies and more contradiction
so tell me what would you say
id say its time too late

physics was so damn fun. -LOOKS AT NABI
uh huh joanna ong was talking, we werent listening. chatting away and stuff.
then i took out my foolscrap and wrote nabi thinks bize is cute.
haha then nabi wrote something else on her foolscrap. then we had this flipping of each other foolscrap thingie ? :) eventually the paper got passed around, so now like half the class knows how we think is cute lahh ? ERM.
the english debate was pretty good ? yeah think our class did their best though they lost it.
history test was kinda screwed i guess, wasnt enough time for everything.

i loved the racial harmony tile painting ! :) haha
guess being in charge wasnt really that bad after all, the group of us bonded really well ?
had a crazy time together, painting, getting dirty and everything. hell lot of fun and the final piece of work was beautiful.
-applause girlies !

my dear mel just sent me this damn 'game' she claimed was so fun.
yeah and like when you open the file, it changes your msn nick to 'I JUST GOT MY PERIOD' :/
grreat and dumb me didnt even notice it ? i even went asked mel how do i go about playing the game, mann i feel so like a moron.

haha oh yes before i forget, happy birthday calvin and derrick ! :) like that day we three were out having dinner and started talking about birthdays and found out that the two guys shared it on a same day, haha they were like OH REALLY that kinda thing.

theres like amaths test tomorrow, gosh its only like 820 and im all sleepy ?
my contacts are so dry, im going on glasses tomorrow.
mhmm and i cant wait for the emaths fieldtrip ! -smiles

addiction ;
she will be loved ; maroon 5
somewhere out there ; our lady peace
obviously ; mcfly
dont go away ; oasis

i need to get a hold of myself.

i wanted you to know i love the way you laugh ;


`there is no finish line
8:28 PM
Tuesday, July 20, 2004
hope dangles on a string
like slow spinning redemption
 
school was usuals, the routine i call it.
dammit, tsemin read my inbox and went around school screaming the contents lahh, directly in front of him somemore ! hurr ! -stares at her
umpired the captains ball friendly after school with xinyi, the china people were freaking afraid of the sun ? : yeah as in they kept hiding in the shade not wanting to come out and play. erm i mean its not like you would become a fried human just after 10 minutes huh ?
yeah the guys were kinda enthu about it but the girls purely stoned and stood rooted to the ground. and so for the second case there wasnt really anything to umpire about :\ uh huh, then wenta pick up my china photos. quite alright just that a lot of pictures went missing or something ?
 
hell yeah the amaths test is postponed :) so theres only the history test on tomorrow.
im kinda done with the studying, so hail :)
 
today sucked in all but i dont know why, this mood thingie of mine is so screwed.
perhaps confused is the word, the indecision and the unwillingness thats holding me back.
indulging in everydays knowledge of you leading your life with a smile is more than enough, it always had been. in knowing that, im contented till the point i get lost in your heavenly smile not wanting to get out of this trance. yet its the distance i cant take, its the memories i cant forget.
 
its still you that i love.
 
drifting in and out of reality ;


`there is no finish line
10:36 PM
Monday, July 19, 2004
dont leave me hanging
in a city so dead
held up so high
on such a breakable thread
 
blasted my happy ending ; avril lavigne like the whole of last night, it sure rocks.
slept in late, was messaging ? :)
jiawei that poor thing was baking cheesecakes till 130am :/ haha then tsemin and i were quarrelling in hokkien over sms : oh my goodness.
kay then this morning i made it a point to wake up extra early, walk all the way out to the bus stop, take 74, drop off at dover station, wait for the 650am bus 14 and board it all just to see MR FIRHAD. and according to my dearest tsemin i would be able to catch him at that time but woohoo, i didnt :( yeah and tsemin was practically laughing her head off on the bus ride to school, like :/ lahh.
bio ! -squeezes nabis arm :) haha nabi and i got so bored that we took out paper and started scribbling away.
pe, basketball, seriously dont have much of a liking for the sport but wow, i like zhenrongs layup. -grins at fiona
then chem, sean was soaking wet, i repeat soaking wet. looks as if he just got out of a bath of something. okay and im starting not to understand the concepts, once again :/
recess, i threw away the whole plate of my food. the malay stalls stingray tasted like sour milk, say yuck. -looks at shengyang
history, watched this band of brothers clip. disgusted is the word, uh huh i kinda really dislike germans now.
then chinese was usual slack, played a bit of bingo. next class contact, miss luah was going through this dumb slideshow, i DID try to pay attention but well failed. min was happy :)
yeahh and wonderful put in charge of the racial harmony tile thingie, i had to see to all the discussions and stuff. the final draft is out, luah likes the idea alot, thank God.
history class, was doing up some work stuff.
then training, pretty okay, saw mr firhad walking around and i went gaga ? -bleams and looks at haida sher and ness :)  we have this carnival coming up. think the groupings are kinda screwed, its like a suicide case for both, oh well.
MHMM, was at the 1H foodstall, practically bought everything they had to sell, chicken wings, coke, whatever. haha its mr firhads class stall so er ya :)
 
got home, did homework and emaths notes :) yeahh and from today onwards nessie and i officially form the pioneers of our NERDS CLUB. uh huh we are dead serious of pulling our socks way up, hear us boy WAY UP :) yeah so we would be studying full time, mostly at our so-to-be hangout jurong east library. sounds cool ?
 
and oh yes, i received a letter from china ! :)
haha was so excited when i saw the letter on my desk ? mhmm carefully opened it and guess what, its from HU ZHONG NAN :)  gosh almost teared when i was reading it, especially at the last part when he signed off
'hu zhong nan,
i miss you'
 
kay im thinking of wearing glasses tomorrow cause my contacts are hurting like anything.
back to notes, over !
 
hopefully ;




`there is no finish line
10:21 PM
Sunday, July 18, 2004
im so sick of fights i hate them :(
 
well yesterday was nice. church games day was fun.
our group came up with the name HOLY-GANS :) think its kinda cool.
and my lovely group members are
>derrick !
>darrel !
>qingzhen !
>emmanuel ! aka iceman :)
>calvin !
>mingzhu !
>cindy !
>esther !
 
haha i loved the final destination game, although it got us all wet and flourish but was exciting lahh. mingzhu was like screaming when it was her turn :)
then alternate current, jumped and jumped and JUMPED. haha but like half the time we were sabo-ing the other group lahh.
acid river, we lost this one cause in the ending part kaijun was screaming so loudly that esther couldnt hear what derrick was saying :
the finale was SUPPOSED to be us waterbombing each other but we all ganged up and bombed the committee ! haha like the whole youth church against eight pathetic little things, imagine that.
 
kay then washed up, debrief. the holy-gans won the most integrity group award :)
had dinner at longhouse, MEEPOK ! -looks at huizhen
haha chatted and everything, made this dumb looking straw bracelet :
 
cabbed back, messaged till i fell asleep.
 
today started off terrible, ahh shant talk about it.
boy im losing my textbooks :(
first was chem and physics, now amaths emaths and bio. and thats like everything lahh ?  :/
 
im tired, nap time.
 
give me time ;


`there is no finish line
3:29 PM
Saturday, July 17, 2004
i dont mind spending everyday
out on your corner in the pouring rain
look for the girl with a broken smile
ask her if she wants to stay awhile
and she will be loved
 
currently blasting rain down by planet shakers :)
well just got up not long ago, theres tuition at 1030 and church at 130. kinda rush.
oh there was this very nice documentary on national geographic channel last night ? mhmm, its on chimps and boy theyre really really intelligent creatures.
 
and i love the august cleo mag, super nice !
congrats karo cause her dad finally bought her a 8310 :)  haha
 
moods up ! todays the seventeen :)
-thinks back
 
gosh running late, bye.
 
everything you do ;


`there is no finish line
9:28 PM
Friday, July 16, 2004
if i should stay
i would only be in your way
so ill go
but I know
ill think of you every step of the way
 
loved english :) -smiles
besides that wasnt really glad about anything throughout the day.
 
training was a killer, the sun was super hot : almost died.
nine sets of finger pushups, fingers almost broke.
and waterbreak was like what? coach said waterbreak, sheranne and i walked to the watercooler, havent even reach the watercool coach shenghui said times up :/
 
and i hate going homes with him, hurr : conversations are so boring lahh.
 
never even thought to cry
when  heard you say goodbye
never said where you were going
and theres no laughter in the air
only silence everywhere
and so much left unspoken
since youve been gone
i havent been the same
i wish that i could see
whos to blame
 
without you, where do i belong
without you, how can i go on
and no love but yours will ever do
tell me how am i supposed to live my life
without you
 
was in lost in you and ne
to the point i couldnt see
that what we had was dying
now its all that i can do
to see photographs of you
and stop myself from crying
i should learn to live without your love
got so many memories
but its not enough
without you, where do i belong
without you, how can i go on
and no love but yours will ever do
tell me how am I supposed to live my life
without you
i feel helpless and oh so alone
like I never felt before
You made feel alive
I don't remember what it's like anymore
 
beautiful song, -points up
my heads kinda heavy, gonna have a early sleep.
nights all.
 
the tide is high but im holding on ;


`there is no finish line
10:03 PM
Wednesday, July 14, 2004
i dont want to let you down
i dont want to lead you on
i dont want to hold you back
from where you might belong

sis fetched me to school today, munching my cheese toast on the way. say dread, amaths was a usual bore. PLUS my sickening cramps just hadta came on, freaking painful, aargh :/ was lying my head on the table to rest then miss lee just had to scream mindy wake up :| like hello, im not sleeping lahh ?
popped pills, felt much better during chem :) haha i kinda like the mole topic, its interesting in a sense ? er i cant believe i said that, OH WELL :) haha then nat said something .. :)
physics ! bingo ! :D -LOOKS AT TSEMIN. mhmm, tsemin me sherri and jeraldine are currently addicted to it :) had this performance thingie, just stood there, SHAKED :|
history ! mrs thomas didnt come, did workbook.
recess, usual stingray and veggie rice. haha theres this dolphin shark joke going around lahh, dont find it funny somehow :|
english, haha debating time. took up the internet topic, and oh boy, -GRASPS our proposition is actually ritiks group. -shaky smile
the first group debated, think chia is really a good debater :) haha and everyone was cracking up on pams mgs :)
physics at skybridge, BINGO, again :D
history, BINGO-ED again ! haha mhmm ! then cheonged amaths till about 300. tsemin and babyy were playing hangman and sherri and i were doing the work. bought the cheesecake 3b was selling, quality stuff :) -thumbs up.
but youll never imagine who baked it alright :|
>EDWIN ZENG !
>LEE JIA WEI !
>BENETT ONG !
haha i was like 'wow them ?' :) HAHA. it kinda amuses me to think of them three trying to bake a CAKE in the kitchen, like it just doesnt go ? :|
went down, played with jamies hamster ! ah super cute twinkle :)
then wenta holland with karo to get my r&d mugs, went to this super sleek shop, fancied this fingerprints case ! SUPER NICE. but sixtyeightbucks lahh, almost fainted.
then huizhens place for cell, pretty nice. its karos first time and we did this spirtual thermometer thingie, felt really happy that my christian walk is progressing and stuff, mhmm ! :D
and oh yes, on that, devotions this morning was a stunner. i felt as if it was preaching directly at me that sort of thing. for weeks i kept asking the Lord to guide me on certain issues and he gave me the answer just this morning, just when i least expected it. praise the Lord mann :) felt a sense of relieve somehow.

got home, bathed then came online.
trying to source for information on the internet debate topic.
and oh yes yes, HAPPY BIRTHDAY EI HSIN ! :D haha glad she liked the duckie plush toy :) ah but birthday girl is down on a fever :( take care sweetie !

great, theres lots of homework dued tomorrow, freak it mann. spells late nights :( moods still a little thrashed, clearing up some heavy thoughts is sure hard.

oh congrats to my sista ! she officially graduated today :) mhmm and shes bugging me to get of the com cause she wanna view her gradution pictures, so bye ! -waves

i just cant live a lie anymore ;

`there is no finish line
8:34 AM
Tuesday, July 13, 2004
cause if i leave this place i wont be coming back

haha gosh played bingo for the whole of chinese lesson, 24 for for mock orals :| was very late for emaths, mr ganesan wasnt too glad about it and stuff. skipped orca and class contact, ate and went for orals in the hall. like what im the last candidate in my batch :/ tsemins second last. waited till like 0430 that it was finally my turn. haha mhmm we kinda cheated ? yeah we had this code thingie.
>hard – tuck your hair behind your ears with one hand
>easy – tuck your hair behing your ears with two hands
tsemin was sneezing the whole time lahh, used up like four packets of tissue the whole of today. take care girlie :)
so the orals kinda screwed, stumbled a bit here and there and the teachers looked highly uninterested in my speech,
watched the 999 photoslide of the china trip on mr kwas labtop, then did up some work with sheranne and sherri in the canteen. wenta holland to meet up with zhen karo and june for dinner. thought I was early, was taking my own sweet time messaging and strolling into kfc. mann was like 43 mins late and they were like hurrr. dinner was nice, sharing about one and others funny incident that happened over the week.

right im unhappy over stuffies :(((((
theres lots going on boy, i really dont know what to do.

thanks a lot fiona and sam for the tannlines slippers :D its very nice

guess this is it.
screw-

whats there left to feel ;

`there is no finish line
10:20 PM
Monday, July 12, 2004
when visions around you
bring tears to your eyes
and all that surround you
are secrets and lies

biology, got back our test paper, a half mark away from my twenty, damn. nabi and i were saying how much we dont wanna take our height and weight during pe later, and also HOW SO VERY CUTE mr firhad is, uh huh :) like great, miss tay is gonna take our term two statics, haha. played basketball, was bored out that kinda thing.
chem was usuals, mole concept and stuff. yeahh and sean was there telling me how he could have scored four goals yesterday but missed :)
recess, couldnt finish my food, threw it away. mood hasnt been up and all.
then history, was doing up the essay the whole time, wrote like a page and a quarter and im like wow, i actually wrote THIS ? :) chinese was ultra slack, mdm shi gave us the two whole periods to practise orals. yeahh and everyones was laughing like anything cause tsemin impersonate ah chun, its damn funny i tell ya :D
lifeskills in the hall, this talk by this lady from a welfare home, pure boring :/
then class contact, was messaging my sista. school ended, decided to skip the history class, sista picked me up then wenta nuh. dad just had a operation at 1030 :| he was asleep when i got there, and the first thing he said for when he got up was,

nurse, can i eat char siew ?
we were like :||||||| daddy, there isnt char siew around that kinda thing.
and the nurse said he only can have biscuits.
and he said 'huh i want char siew leh'
nurse said no
then 'i want char siew lah'
he was whining like a little boy alright, was like huh ? :|

okay then the nurse took blood pressure for him, it was like 160, super high.
uh huh then my dad streched out his arm, point his index finger at the blood pressure machine and said 'eh nurse, your gadget new or old wan arh, spoil already issit?' in this haha innocent tone lahh. hes acting kinda weird at the ward, really. mum was laughing like mad :/ yeah then mum went on to tell me how badly dad was pleading with the nurse to allow her to be with him in the operation theatre cause he was freakking out like anything. HAHA :)

went to the canteen for lunch, like wow one plate of fish and chips is -clear throat, seven bucks :/ then nessie called to say netball training was cancelled so i took my time and everything. sis fetched me back to school, watched the girlies play with sheranne and audrey. met linus in the canteen and he made this very funny infarate action ? :D haha OH BOY.

bussed back, actually saw him when i was on board 74, he was walking to the bus stop with his friends. thought alot on the walk back, dont know why ?

went out for dinner with mum, some restaurant at clarke quay she said was very nice, well indeed was good. haha on the way there the cab we were in got banged into by a motorcycle at the traffic junction, haha mum was scared.

yes well as you can see, ive got a new blog skin ! :D haha, think its pretteh nice ya, bright and stuff. but its not quite yet done, the pink paint splash region is empty, my guestbook is kinda screwed up and stuff, got so pissed trying to settle the payment thingie with signmyguestbook.com :(

tomorrow ! there is ..
> o levels oral ! :||||||| -SCRREAM
> tuition ! :/
> dinner with karo june and zhen ! :D
and tomorrows a long dayy, aargh sucha its drag.

somehow got this feeling that orals gonna be screwed, hurr.
i ought to do work, ciao :)

and i dont feel the same ;



`there is no finish line
10:14 PM
Sunday, July 11, 2004
stacies mum has got it going on
shes all i want and ive waited for so long
waited and waited

got back from dinner, wenta some seafood restaurant at tuas with my family, sista just touched down. haha dad went to the petrol kiosk to pump oil, and came back with this donate blood save lives flyer, and he wants ME to go for it ?! :/ :\ :| confirm 100% ill freak out like shit kay, i cant stand blood. cant stand seeing my own blood flowing out of a tube into this plastic bag thingie. it just makes my knees go weak having that thought ? :| no mann, im out of this dad.
right then went cold storage to get stuff, was determined to get my mini room fridge filled with something. haha bought alot, now my fridge is barely closable :) look, ive cheesecake, chocolate bars, sweets, fruits, yoghurt, chilled coffee :) haha well at least my fridge is put into some use lahh.

GRREAT, now that my sistas back, shes currently unpacking her suitcase and the WHOLE ROOM is super duper messy, -slaps forehead. the best thing is shes dumping everything on MY BED :\ theres plastic bags, clothes and more clothes :| uh huh, she got me this pink von dutch tee, pretteh nice, and also this chocolate peanut dunkin doughnut :) was just looking through the things she got and boy, SHE SHOPPED A LOT A LOT AAA LOTTT :) she got herself this ancient mirror, tons of tees, three shorts, two pants, slipperss, necklacesss.
haha the funny thing was she was telling me on how the ratio of meeting a transversite is so much higher than meeting a normal thai girl, like :||| how sick is that :/ hahah

currently chatting online, messaging, surfing. im kinda bored out. sistas kinda high after the trip, shes extra happy somehow ? weirdo, and also my rooms atmosphere is back to normal. mhmm, screaming yelling laughing, thats so us. -looks at sis

napped in the afternoon, had this horrible terrible dream. was swimming at some country club and i met MISSJEANLUAH ! :/ hurr, dream also must dream of her, quite rotten.

i cant wait for school boy !
nights world.

so bring us back to where our love first started ;




`there is no finish line
10:57 PM

 rain down on me
its here in your presence im free
fall down like rain
come touch me again

wenta tsemins place to do project yesterday morning, playing rain down the whole time. its super NICE :) -points up
then trained down to somerset, haha we were like practically ringing everyone one up on our phonebooks that kinda thing :)
the audiotrium for the youth rally was pretteh nice, did cell prayers and prayer walks.
went for dinner at mos burger with huizhen tsemin karo sirong pris joanne.
then went cine with karo to get calvin, met nigel and charissa ? :) and also kenny plus yaozhi. -LOOKS AT KARO
went downta power house building together, hanged around the entrance for short chats and stuff. went into the hall, took the first row seats.
the songs were damn good, totally rocked. everyone was singing and jumping and really praising Lord.
the drama was pretteh nice too, pastor long preached after that, interesting :)
after some encouragement and stuff, karo and calvin went down for altars call ? :D was elated boy, sat in their counselling too. karos excited about this new life shes embarking on, thats is wonderful alright. calvins a little unwilling though, hmmm.
wenta search for a place to eat, was about ten plus and everywhere was crowded. everyone left in the end, pretteh hurriedly :/ erm right so calvin and i just walked around. went paragon, sat down and chatted for a while, about his diving trips at indo.
on how he got the scars on his body with credits to the sea urchins, on how melody chen became his dive part blahblah, was nice.
cabbed back, got home about 1130.
watched some leopard seals documentary on national geographic then slept.

am shagged now, theres work to do.
next weeks gonna be a busy week ? was just sorting out the stuffs on for next week and boy, theres alot going on. hectic is the word :|

shall be back.

so let me slip away ;

`there is no finish line
4:20 PM
Friday, July 09, 2004
tidal waves they rip right through me

blasting roses ; outkast :)

had emaths quiz, was hard :/ just hope i pass it, yes a pass would do. chinese was kinda slack, had this cheng yu game and ting xie and thats about it ? yeahh then sherri drew this purple ring and purple pearl bracelet on my right hand with her purple marker and zhen drew this colourful dragon on my left arm :| gosh. then english, was decorating my pink notebook throughout, bored.
recess, the queue up for food part was pretteh nice :) eating part was crazyy, -LOOKS AT JAMIE. kept stealing my stingray lah that girl, hashbrowns also ! hurr ! :D
chemistry, i really like sean being my chem partner ! :D he explains everything i dont understand clearly slowly to me :) mhmm now i understand everything :) thanks sean, haha.
and THANKYOUVERYMUCH limtsemin too for emphasising my name so VERY much when mrsang was going through the mole concept. hurr -GLARES :/
had r&d in the hall, stoning.

after school, WOOHOO skipped the lunch with her cause she was fasting or something :) had a short prayer meeting then slacked around till training started, warmup runs, drills, then half court. almost died, half court was super tiring. legs gonna break that kinda thing :/ hadta redo it over and over again cause shooting percentage wasnt too good and stuff, yeah.
then nessie did her shots and we assisted her, everyones was laughing like crazyy over this mike guy, hes kinda funny, in a spastic way that is. he kept talking to himself ? :|
-LOOKS AT SHER AND SHAH :)

fish porridge for dinner AGAIN :| kay im so sick of it.
anyhows am glad the week is coming to a close, youths rallys tomorrow ! :) mhmm !
RAYMONDJOHNATHAN ; you lazybonies better turn up :)

gotta be down at tsemins place at 10 tomorrow to do up the bio assignment, no late sleepins :| hmph.
sis is still in thailand, and i miss her lahh. the room is unusually quiet boy.

dont think im feeling too well, heads for bed.

perfect strangers ;


`there is no finish line
10:23 PM
Thursday, July 08, 2004
cause all thats left has gone away
and theres nothing there for you to prove

mum was screaming into my face cause i had a problem waking up today :/ assemblys kinda fun today, had this voting thingie. I WANT A BBQ PIT ! :D haha.
great, mr ganesan just have to pick me to answer his questions. seriously think he has something against me boy :/
haha then baby and i were kinda like poking each other, and she did SOMETHING so super embarrassing ! -GRASPS :| felt like strangling her alright.
biology, -bleams :D
physics was sheer bore :/ a maths was sheer sheer bore :recess ! haha chicken rice and stingray rockks. was kinda screaming at babyy at the lockers cause she practically stuffed HER EVERYTHING into MY locker :| haha :)
then english next, well look at this kay ;
samantha was doing her chinese xi zi.
chia babyy and me were testing each other biology questions.
jiawei and moko wore earplugs and stone into their biology textbooks.
johnston was crapping big time.
shibin and eugene were sleeping.
eileen and hsin were talking.
so the question is, who the hell is listening ? right NO ONE :) thats english in case you didnt know, misshia doesnt really mind and stuff. well that rockks.
had orca then this super short class contact. they decided on a food stall in the end, OH WELL.

the netballers had biology earlier than the rest. its kinda difficult, think section c is kinda screwed.
by the time we got down the coach was already there, the trip to singapore sports school was long, or rather the old man driver was slow. man the school is like SUPER DUPER BIG ? yeah very nice interiors, spacious and all. the match was kinda a disaster, thrashed damn badly, the sports school girls were really good especially the goal attack, her shots are those you would go wahhhh that kinda thing.
the personal then brought us around the school after the match.
-jaws drop
mann their facilites are freakking best alright.
>two outdoor and one indoor netball court
>ten badminton courts
>forty pingpong tables
>two storey aircon gym with a indoor track (the lady said its the best gym in the own of asia mind you)
>one fullsize soccer pitch
>one eight lane track
>two olyumpics size swimming pool
>one acrade
uh huh, everyone was going 'soo nice, sooooo nice' that kinda thing. the place is huge, and i mean HUGE :| and their dorms are like condos alright, super classy.
I WANNA ATTEND SPORTS SCHOOL :D haha dream on lahh huh

got back to school, played a little while then left.
SOMETHING REALLY FUNNEH HAPPENED AT THE TRAFFIC JUNCTION.
-looks at ness
HAHAHA, gosh its super ...
yeah so here it goes, nessie and i were talking at the traffic junction waiting for the greenman. then DONT KNOW WHY we just started walking across the road, we were too engrossed in our conversation that we just walked and walked till we got to the midpoint that we realised all the cars we horning at us cause it was still red man :/ ! we were like OOPSIES, then ran back to the side. slipped into this laughing frenzy at our stupidity, haha.

kay theres only this bit homework to be done :)
the eight of us are gonna die tomorrow cause we havent even touched our emaths chart assignment, uh huh mr ganesans gonna yell.
and damn good luck to sherriannechoohuiyi and mindyngminli cause they lost their r&d files which is due tomorrow. and mr ganesan so happens to be my r&d teacher so its gonna be a double black mark thing ? :|
and after school tomorrow im gonna have lunch with her, think its gonna be a thrashing out talk thingie, ahh i dread such stuff alright :(

currently hooked on these infectious tunes ;
all down hill from here ; new found glory
look what youve done ; jet
down ; blink 182
dashboard confessional vindicated ; sparta
talk to me ; smash
penny and me ; hanson
away from the sun ; three doors down
obviously ; mcfly
running away ; hoobastank

alright i needa run, over !

`there is no finish line
10:39 PM
Wednesday, July 07, 2004
got a ticket for a world where we belong
so would you be my baby

schools kinda fine, the same old boring rountine over and over again.
haha like after school, tsemin and i went back to mrs thomas class to get glue then met shifu at the self study area ? :) right then we had this ahhem compeition in which he AHHEM damn loud that the WHOLE ROW of students turned to look us ? hurr, hah.
kay so slacked around school, went tzone with tsemin. ate chatted then left for zhens place. had cell, was nice :) am so looking forward to the youth rally this saturday baby.

went home, like when i was walking up the stairs my mum just popped out of nowhere and cupped my eyes with her both hands ? erm then she led me to my room and ta-da, she bought me a fridge :| its super space consuming alright, dont really like it. kinda useless cause besides my strawberry yoghurt drink and a few pathetic peaches the whole fridge is practically EMPTY :/ thanksmum.

sistas packing her lugguage right now, -turns and look at her
its still as empty as it was at nineoclock ? :| yeah and her flight is like 5am tomorrow morning that kinda thing, woohoo. hmm shes going thailand with raymond for a getaway or something, till sunday, pretteh cool huh ? :) shes kinda enthu about it, like she went surfing the net for thai webby to learn thai language and got herself this thailand guidebook, im like four days lahh not like a month or something. and she better gets me something nice from there alright, after getting her the louis vuitton handbag from china, or ill slaughter her alive :)

then dads scheduled for operation next monday at nuh. was on the phoen with him after cell for a while and hes kinda freakking out at the thought of being under the knife ? :| :/ :\ dont worry daddy ! -hugs dad tight

netball match against singapore sports school tomorrow, GOODLUCK GIRLIES ! must win, MUST WIN ! :D
okay ought to go back and hit the books, nights all.

thanks thanks thanks
xinyi ; pretteh pink piggie coaster !
the cell ; pretteh white roxy tee !

sometimes in life, we hafta give up the thing we want most ;

`there is no finish line
11:52 PM

 im here without you baby, but youre still on my lonely mind
i think about you baby and i dream about you all the time
im here without you baby, but youre still with me in my dreams
and tonight girl, theres only you and me

kay todays kinda like a crazy day in all.
lessons were hell boring.
amaths.
biology.
chinese.
emaths.
haha the whole last row were snacking during amaths lahh, popping sweets, munching biscuits, chewing chocolates and stuff (:

then after school everyone decided to pon amaths classes, mhmm so practically was slacking in the canteen till 630 or so with jamie sherri sheranne junyi. haha we ordered pizza ? :) yeahh then after eating everyone got possessed or something, we took all the markers and started scribbling on each others arm. haha oh boy we were laughing and screaming like anything alright, wrote damn spastic stuffs lahh ?
-stares at FOXY, SHERRI, SHER
haha grreat then we started splashing water on each other. kinda gone crazy running around the canteen yelling like some mad women. yes, and everyone got drenched like soaking wet darling, hoho. and the waters from watercooler so its icy cold that kinda thing, and EVERYTHING was so see-through :/ haha was really fun though :D
got home at around 700, bathed, changed then wenta king albert park macdonalds to meet calvin. he got me this er QUITE nice fcuk shirt for my birthday ? chatted for a while, left, went home for dinner, then went online.
he was online and rather we chatted :) was nice, sending songs and everything. asked something i always wanted to ask ? OH WELL.
:) ?
:( ?
:| ?
:/ ?
:\ ?
i dont know, my heart speaks a language my mind dont understand.

went off, done up history poster and came back on.
there isnt homework today, one small reason to be happy about.
probably just study biology before i pop into bed later.

i feel the need to thank everyone who gave me a little something for my birthday, so here it goes ;
in no order of merit

the girls! ; yummy bangawang solo chocolate cake !
nessie ; pretteh card !
karo ; dinner treat ? haha
samantha ; flower pendant
jing and hsin ; cowie plush toy with the moomoo sound !
mary and martha ; tigger keychain !
joel ; wax figurine and cds
chialing ; sweet handmade brownie and card !
_______ ; pink espirit jacket and cowie toyy !
ritik ; pink tee !
jiawei ; pretteh bracelet and stone engravement !
calvin ; fcuk tee !
aloysius ; hallmark card !
sista ; mango top !

i hope i didnt leave out any. oh and also to all who wished me ? :D yupp
haha right, am watching this i bet you will show on mtv now, mann this guy actually flashed his butt cheeks for a minute for pathetic ten bucks, how gross :/ well things people do for money huh ? haha

wow its kinda tomorrow already, 1243 this wednesday morning ?
time for devotions, takecare.

flu buggy you get out of him, TAKECARE :)

im losing control of my heart ;

`there is no finish line
12:50 AM
Monday, July 05, 2004
lying in my bed i hear the clock tick,
and i think of you
caught up in circles confusion is nothing new
flashback, warm nights
almost left behind
a smooth case of memories,
time after

went malaysia, was sleeping on the tourbus most of the time. haha
visited like three temples, boring. then went shopping, the fun part.
>five nike shirts
>one nike sportbra
>two nike socks
yeah mum and i were like running around the mall cause there really wasnt enough time. uh huh, then got back singapore at around 930, thank God there wasnt any jam.

had this REALLY NICE dream last night :D i kept thinking about it today, funny how it stays on my mind. oh well, if only dreams reflects in reality.

just printed my physics essay thingie, purely copy and pasted off the webby i went to, like heck it i cant be bothered. then the poster is to due tomorrow too, hurr.
and like what GREECE won portugal again, actually did watch the match a little, hmm somehow just dont have a liking to greece. feel that portugal should have won it, but well this whole euro thingie is like an underdogs game.

blasting in the shadows ; the rasmus, this is one song ill never get sick of yeahh ? :)
i ought to go, mums nagging. i cant wait for school somehow, i wanna see him.

how could it be youre asking me to feel things you never show ;

`there is no finish line
10:48 PM

 yet i am merely to you
a drifting shadow
just a memory

yes im kinda very bored now.
besides drinking my strawberry yoghurt drink theres anything very much to do.
theres this really sickening ulcer in my lower lip, spells pain and nothing else :(

i think im kinda weird, my mood just flacuates, rollercoasterishly.
trust me i have no idea whats going on.
-screams
theres just this strong feel of disappointment raging, alright alright im WEIRD :/

have this feeling im not gonna make it to the match.
OH WELL :)

everything you said to me were just lies ;

`there is no finish line
1:14 AM
Sunday, July 04, 2004
all this time you were pretending
so much for my happy ending

bought linkin parks hybrid theory, woohoo hell it rocks.
very nice album indeed, super nice songs. ahh LINKIN PARK RULES.
but the lyrics book is kinda screwed up.

erm look at this ;
i put my trust in you
pushed as rar sa i can go
and for all this
theres only one thing you whould know

hmm didnt quite do much today, been messaging throughout.
oh boy, my bills are gonna shoot up like anything.
but well, he messaged so im like on cloud seventeen ? :D grins, i really love chatting with him, he just got this wicked sense of humour lahh.

leaving for malaysia tomorrow at 630am, some cheapskate one day tour thingie mum signed up for me and herself. bet shes gonna shop till she drops that kinda thing.

theres nothing really much to talk about today somehow.
-looks up
this entry is kinda short huh.

oh the euro finals are on tonight, or rather early tomorrow morning.
portugal vs greece, guess im up for portugal ? :) perhaps ill catch it lahh, then can also do my homework in the meantime.

hmm he wenta play piano, was just trying to picture that. think its kinda cool huh ? :) haha oh well HYBRID THEORYS FREAKING NICE, turn it back on.

cause you know ill walk a thousand miles if i can just see you tonight ;

`there is no finish line
11:06 PM
Saturday, July 03, 2004
you never gave us a chance to be

o levels listening was super difficult ? :| yeahh and i like my index number, 1010 :)
then had breakfast with zhen, tsemin and babyy at dover. haha baby and i goofed up one prata and one bowl of noodles and we were like wahh, haha. then sent babyy for band, she was late and kept lingering outside the bandroom refusing to go in ?
went up ness place after that, did some work. her mum had a talk with me ? haha kinda freaked out.
then bussed to town, haha we were talking about some sick topic ? :/ -looks at ness
went mango, ness got a top. then check out lido tickets, like mann, the queue like superr loong, till the escalators ? :|
then wenta shop more, nothing really caught my eye today except for a super pretteh pink adidas superstar at cine. man theyre like freaking beautiful boy, love it. saw edwins sista maybelline at zara, shes super duper chio :) and also jan at cine.
haha then went taka, met up with ________. were deciding where to have dinner then we bumped into HIM! -SCREAMS :D haha he was there for dinner with his parents, man he looked super gorgeous alright :)))
settled for foodcourt in the end, then went over to heeren. yes and nessie cant stand the way i smile when im replying my smses, haha -smiles at ness
took neoprints, haha damn funny we looked so lame lahh. screaming and laughing inside the neoprint machine and stuff ? haha :)
bussed home, bathed and tada here i am.

mum said we will be going malaysia on monday :) a short short vaction i guess. oh well, no comments.

looked through the pictures again, man i miss china badly :(
i miss baosideng-ing with sheranne on the plane!
i miss the train ride to huangshan!
i miss the band playing for us at the gates!
i miss us noising in our messy dorms!
i miss every mornings zhao du!
i miss turning back and yak with shiyu, danwei and baby!
i miss sitting opposite sherri during lunch breaks!
i miss ness peeling eyeshells for me!
i miss us complaining about the food!
i miss passing messages with baby during chinese lessons!
i miss signing autographs!
i miss matthew turning back and yak with me!
i miss dongdongs smile!
i miss the walkee talkee joke during physics!
i miss teasing baby about lychee tree!
i miss dance rehearsals!
i miss the trip to mo chang!
i miss the lao jie shopping with the girls!
i miss bargaining with the shopkeepers!
i miss night lessons!
i miss teaching them the song 'home'!
i miss teasing dan wei about li xin with baby!
i miss aarons sleepy look during maths lesson!
i miss zhong nan chats with me during class breaks!
i miss their super loud 'lao shi zao!'
i miss singing s.h.e songs with dongdong!
i miss watching bize play the piano in the danceroom!
i miss the never ending crowds of people outside our dorms!
i miss the dorm visits!
i miss us quarrelling over wang le!
i miss gossiping about hu ying!
i miss sherri yakking about her ah beng!
i miss bathing times at night!
i miss every nights writing letters on our beds!
i miss us sharing about our day!
i miss supper treats!
i miss us running around the school at night!
i miss us munching chips before lights out!
i miss shopping at the supermart with the girls!
i miss pigging out at kfc!
i miss the very nice kfc egg tart!
i miss us unable to differniate the one cent renminbi and one dollar reminbi coin!
i miss everydays rountine!
i miss huangshans hike!
i miss crapping with the girls!
i miss singing songs while climbing!
i miss drinking beer with ziluo, ness, sherri, sher, lily, matt, jeraldine secretly in ziluos room!
i miss us going crazy drunk till midnight!
i miss locking the love couples lock!
i miss the zoo visit!
i miss the angels table dinner!
i miss the last night at the school!
i miss all the cryings and huggings!
i miss seeing dongdong run after the bus when it was driving out the school gates!
i miss the train ride back!
i miss the opposite bunk people snorings throughout the night!
i miss the macdonalds lunch at shanghai!
i miss the crazy shopping spree with sheranne!
i miss the fitting rooms laughters with her!
i miss the running from mall to mall with her!
i miss mad buying sessions!
i miss last days snapping ups!
i miss the last lunch we had!
i miss the bus on the way to the airport!
i miss jeraldine and i going gaga over shibin at the airport!
i miss the checking in!
i miss the flight back!
i miss the headphone conversation with baby!
i miss the chatting ups with ness on the plane!
i miss visiting sheranne and sherri at the front!
i miss us jumping for joy at changi airport!
i miss us breaking off to meet our families!
i miss the supper with karo tsemin huizhen chialing sam at newton circus!
i miss the spicy stingrays and sambal mussels!

i miss jeraldines little princess whines.
i miss nessies and i hazelnut chocolate crazes.
i miss karo saying how shuai lizhang is.
i miss sherris xiao liu intro.
i miss sheranne running around times square with me.
i miss lilys crazy laughter.
i miss crystals super gong look.
i miss joanne teaching us the dance steps.
i miss danielle doing up the scripts with me that night.
i miss matthews cute 'meiyoudemeiyoudes'.
i miss aarons being so enthu teaching the class during night classes.
i miss ziluos mickey mouse action.
i miss teasing joel about jiajia.
i miss bize chat during the huangshan hike.
i miss aloysius look when karo was sleeping on his shoulders.
i miss mr kwas conversations and his malaysian slang.

i miss every single thing.

take care junqi, dont worry kay?
nights all! :)

take it all away ;

`there is no finish line
11:37 PM
Friday, July 02, 2004
hoho birthdays today!
thank you everyone for the wishes whether it is through sms, msn or phonecalls ? :)
thank you everyone for the sweeet presents and cards ? :)
thank you my besties for the chocolate cake after training ? :)

school was fine.
training was okay, the girls planned this mini surprise 'party' lahh :D very nice of them alright, the cake was delicious too yeah ?

haha went crystal jade taka for dinner with family, woohoo the baked cheese lobsters are grreat stuff :)

and the china pictures are out! :D
damn i look so freaking spastic in them. haha gosh
-looks at ness

o levels listening tomorrow morning, wish me good luck ?
i still miss last years birthday :(

nights all !

`there is no finish line
11:18 PM
Thursday, July 01, 2004
youre one in a million

-points up to the date above
firstjuly ! birthday eve ! :D
haha yeahh and its my pretty boy idol RUUD VAN NISTELROOYS BIRTHDAY ! :) -bleams
how nice, his birthday is just a day before me, and ahh i was planning to catch the match but stupid me dozed off at about one plus ? :/ and heard on the radio on my way to school that holland lost to portugal, hurr ! 2-1, damn.

right, my morning was ruined. firstly was the match result, THEN received a letter from ________ plus a cow notepad and cow pencil. i seriously wanted to tear the letter up when i was reading it on my way to class, so pissed.
and to ________ :
i said A HUNDRED AND ONE TIMES no. no means no, dont you understand english or something ? and thankyou very much i gave the stuffies to jeraldine and the letter is crushed and thrown into mr ganesans classroom waste paper basket. stop it, youre making me sick.
hurr, i was so frustrated that i couldnt pay attention to the lesson, was really angry :(
biology cleared my mood, mr firhad wore glasses today and he looks so cute in it ? :) haha and i kept giggling to myself so much that tsemin kept giving me THAT LOOK :/ -looks at tsemin
physics, tsemin was decorating her pencilbox and i was purely stoning. really boring boy. did this running up the stairs experiment, now i know why im always late for classes.
then amaths, grreat. didnt do homework and misslee made us do the WHOLE of execrise 6a and 6b :|||||| its a hell lot of work to do lahh ? was cheonging through it for the whole period plus recess plus english.
had some talk by misslim for forum, was kinda boring :/

broke off, continued amaths in class.
haha nabi and isabel kept listening to the recorded band piece in my phone :)
finished up, left. slacked around then training started.
was super slack, did sprints and skipping.
then ness wenta shoot, i defend, sherri and sheranne feed. was fun :) haha ness went woohoo when her already sprained ankle twisted a little ? haha
bussed home, bathed, had dinner.

i hafta start on my work real soon ya, or im gonna be a deadass tomorrow.
im kinda happy today, SOMEHOW besides what happened in the morning :) i wont say why !
lalala, i say OREO you say rock.

ITS GONNA BE MY BIRTHDAY BABY, 2HRS AND 58MINUTES :D
tata.

fade into you ;

`there is no finish line
9:02 PM


and i wont forget the way you loved me ;
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