Tuesday, August 31, 2004
swallowed up in the sound of my screaming

cannot cease for the fear of silent nights

riight, i havent been updating for days. the past few days had been good (:

sat ;
was on the phone with mel in the afternoon, then went down toa payoh to catch the netball super league finals. beautiful netball, i loved the way vipers goal attack shoots, the confidence in her eyes was stunning.
had supper at some ulu coffee shop, was hilarious.

happy birthday nabi ali baba ! :D

sun ;
team b played their second round of carnivals. was there with mel, haha i love her lime green zara skirt ! (:
waited for sherri to finish her mass, haha she was stalked by some weirdo on the way to kallang lahh. she was like telling mel and i all about it and we almost died laughing i tell ya, it pays to be pretty. bussed down town together, then window shopped quite a bit. sheranne joined us after her games, caught STEPFORD WIVES ! :D ahh its super duper ultra nice, the plot, the scenes, purrfect ! (: nicole kidman is sure pretty. haha we kinda had this picnic in the cinemia, oh boyy. we had fried chicken, mashed potatoes, wedges, coke blah blah. saw miss Joanna ong our menotoned physics teacher in the cinema, freaky. haha took neos after that ! :D super fun ! oh my goodness we were like some cranked up laughing machines, the neos turned out nice (:
I LOVE MY STEPFORD WIFEYS ! :D

mon ;
o-kay, like when i got to school. sherrianne choo screamed min did you study for chinese test, im like ‘you mean there is??’ uh huh then we had this mouth-wide-open-eyeballs-popping-out face, resembles the scream mask. wonderful, we totally clean forgotten about the four chapter chinese test.
bio, our first ever lab in semester two (: haha nabi and i are on this secret mission ! uh huh, -winks at nabi. hockey for pe, its pretty fun. chem, i truly suspect sean can memorise the periodic table backwards.
did this dream work thing for history, its nice tearing up magazines i realise. then chinese, oh my goodness you just dont know how thankful i am for having my boyfriend as my sitting partner. the killer han yu ping ying was a breeze because of that, HAHA (: uh huh sherri and i left the whole zhao ju section blank, the rest of the answers were rubbishly scribbled on just to fill in the blanks.
lifeskills was crap, tsemin was laughing at this stupid mindmap i drew.

had some usherers meeting after school with sherri, oh mann we were allocated to some ulu spot in school. haha we made a deal to play with our walkietalkies cause its gonna be so damn boring.
then wenta the councilors room to try out our blazers, long sleeves and skirt. haha was fun laughing at each other how dumb we looked in them, really.
popped by the hall to catch the rehearsals, nice.
then played ball at the courts for a while, everyone went crazy.

today ;
happy teachers day. class celebration was way lousy, haha was doing up cards the whole time.
haha then chapel in hall, songs were nice, all the clappings and standing ups for teachers were fun (:
netball celebrations after ! (: i love the song dedication the sec fours sang for miss lee and mrs ang. haha the whole team gave miss lee a JUSTICE LEAGUES GREEN LANTERN FIGURINE and a box of our little thank you notes, mrs ang a sweet red squishy heart cushion and also a box of thank you notes.
went holland with mel ness karo to have lunch, then went town with karo and ness. got tipped off by mr wong that he and MR FIRHARD BIN ROHANI would be catching 0235 the bourne supremacy at cine so we rushed down to cine hoping to get a glimpse of him ! ahh we failed to, BUT haha we met someone ! (:
window shopped a lot, our legs were breaking boyy. bought a pretty pink flare skirt to make up for my favourite pink mango skirt my maid ruined, aww i still prefer my mango skirt.. well nevermind.
orchard was flooded with fairsians, we met a lot a lot of people.


haha sometimes i think my dad is cute. he bought me this beaded hello kitty handphone accessory, im like ? HAHA.
hmm going out with my three beautiful stepford wives plus nessie tomorrow, orcharding again (: i cant wait. its like a girls day out kinda thing, and the dress code is GLAM ! (: haha
hmm tomorrow shall mark the last day of freedom, after tomorrow would be die hard mugging for finals years, its pretty round the corner. haha nerds club back to action ! (: yay, i love studying.

well i predict i would slip into depression state when we get back to school on thursday. uh huh, the word is ppr reports. i dread them alright, like hell. its time to stock up on ice creams.
kay im tired, shall update my wishlist and head straight for bed, ciao world.

im missing, you. /eight



HOW COME-


`there is no finish line
7:44 AM
Saturday, August 28, 2004
letting out the noise inside of me
every window pane is shattering
cutting off my words before i speak
this is how it feels to not believe

i cant wait for the team shoe to arrive, the super pretteh adidas barricade III :) aww, click here !
the c divisions getting the black one, cool :)

hmm im happy, credits to ice cream. wolfing down big spoonful of ice creams when youre feeling upset or frustrated helps. mdm shi successfully made it to the second position of my most hated list, right below miss jean luah, my favourite teacher of all times. yeah, she freaking ringed sherris mum and my mum up just because we didnt attend her stupid lesson after school, what the hell.

theres netball super league finals at toa payoh later tonight, should be going down i guess.

OH MY GOODNESS, -grasps. am talking with maple now and she told me something ! :/
man, that evil pig is a bitch. i mean how could she do that, irritating. she still had the cheek to tell me ______, like real alright, get a life. hurr, i feel bad for maple.
and my dear smelly melly is telling me how NUS HIGH SCHOOL is like, its super american. oh man its way damn cool. she will be transfering there soon :( ill miss you smelly melly !


things are so different now youre gone
i thought it would be easy i was wrong
and now im caught in the middle
even though im with someone new
all i can think about is you
and now im caught in the middle

FUSION-


`there is no finish line
10:43 AM
Thursday, August 26, 2004
the sacrifice of hiding in a lie
everything has to end
youll soon find we are out of time
left to watch it all unwind

well im kinda disappointed with my performance during the commonwealth friendly just. i didnt feel it was my best, i didnt play well enough at all. i came out of court after my every game with the strong feel of regret. the balls i didnt defend, the runs i didnt make, it all just came back as flashbacks and the resounding 'i should have done it that way' in my head.
i didnt know what was with me, am i just not up to it or what.

thrashing them 40-17 was sure a joy to celebrate but the feeling lingers. and the fact that all the defenders are playing the game so well scares me. my inconsistency would eventually lead to my downfall. i want badly to make it to b division'05, i cant afford seeing all the trainings and time i invested to go down the drain. i love the game, it means a lot to me. i want to play along side with martha and xinyi, my darling defenders who have been playing together with me since sec 1.

i gotta buck up, i cant fail myself. netball is my game.

enough on that, school was nice. i love physics lesson, yada.
oh and sherri pam jan and i are ushers for the parents night thing, fancy seeing me in blazer and heels, oh boyy.

thanks crisie and nabi for the chats yes ? i lovee it, haha. i know what im heading for, finally. im glad i have girls like you two. LOVE :)

im feeling sick.

SO BE IT-


`there is no finish line
9:03 PM
Wednesday, August 25, 2004
its the hardest thing ill ever have to do
to look you in the eye and tell you
i dont love you
its the hardest thing ill ever have to do
to turn around and walk away
pretending i dont love you

this song never fails to bring tears to my eyes, the hardest thing ; 98 degrees. simply perfect :)

todays nice nice NICE :) well at least im happy lahh.
chem practical was fun, so was physics practical. nabis the forth person in the whole wide world to know my little secret ! :) haha alright she seemed shocked lahh. just chatting up about some stuff, mhmm. I CANT WAIT FOR OUR NEXT LAB LESSON girlll :) we shall talk then, -winks.
history test was fine, hand ached as usual. mr lim jin shun did his paper ultra fast :
cleared some cca booth stuff after school with tsemin, ended up in tzone pigging out, -stares at tsemin. HAHA, baked rice. kay then combed holland for a photocopy shop, played some street fighter game thing, ryu is good, duh :)
cell was fine, prayer time.

like i dont know why, after cell i just had this craving for icecream.
i practically ran to cold storage, bought a tub :) lalala, i hate my soft spot for ice cream.

anyhows commonwealths friendly is after school tomorrow, excited yet nervous.
we gotta win yes ? we will.

haha my sistas sick, take care lahh you.
well i just wanna drown myself in the hardest thing :)
ciao.

OREO MOONCAKE-
:D oh my goodness, cute.


`there is no finish line
9:25 PM
Tuesday, August 24, 2004
and all is said and done
id never count the cost
its worth all thats lost
just to see you smile

kay todays tiring yet fun.
bio test was a screw up, emaths test was a screw up, amaths quiz was a screw up. hurr forget it.
sherris mum gave karo nessie sherri and me a lift to jurong east library. we were like crazy when SLIDE ALONG SIDE came on. HAHA :) iloveit.
the places super classy for a community library in that sense.was SUPPOSED to study lahh but we were busy yakking laughing eating and stuff. i think theyre the first people to know my little secret ! :) uh huh, haha.

i cant wait for singapore idols encore later, oh it just started pouring outside now.
and i hate my stupid pimple on my chin.

history cant be a screw up for goodness sake please, i love history tests by the way :)

my feelings are a mess ; MESS.
youre an ass, min.

going, GONE-

WONT YOU REIGN IN ME AGAIN-


`there is no finish line
9:27 PM
Monday, August 23, 2004
and baby theres a name for what you put me through

im like damn super tired now, its been a crazy day at school, history makeups and specialised training. plus the fact i slept at 3AM studying for the bio test only to find it being postponed today, -roll eyes.

theres so much i wanna scream out pen it all down here but im purely tired.

all the sweeties are going through rough patches and i hate the fact i cant be there for them cause im so tied up with affairs of everything.

nessie ; TAKE CARE, CHEER UP. i hate seeing my husband cry you know that, -hugs. just remembering in moral terms, youre doing what you should ya. love ! :)
karo ; silly little thang, IM ALWAYS HERE FOR YOU LAHH :) ring me up, message me anything the matter yes. SMILE SMILE SMILE, flirts arent worth it, and hes using you my dear. only i love you ! :) haha see ! your names in purple, your favourite :)
jeraldine ; mummys little princess promised her that she will cheer up didnt she. my little warrior fights on alright, shes never gonna fall, hang on there :)
jamie ; uh huh, you will make through it fling :) love.


you made my day, porky.
UOYEVOLI.



bio and emath,
SCREW DA WORLD-


`there is no finish line
9:00 PM
Saturday, August 21, 2004
one love one shot its all we ever got
girl you got me started now im not gonna stop
now slide along side yeah baby thats right
im gonna show you the time of your life
oh pretty girly come and dance with me
move that naughty body come close to me
now slide along side yeah baby thats right
im gonna show you the time of your life

SHIFTY ; SLIDE ALONG SIDE, -looks at jin shun :) haha we just love that song alright.

kay so wenta study at holland burgerking today, was doing biology mindmaps, those spiderlike ones mr khoo taught us to draw :) then wenta zhens place to watch the table tennis match between jia wei and this north korean girl. its so tensed up alright, and heartbreaking that we lost. i really wanted to plaster up that korean girls mouth, shes so darn noisy boyy. uh huh after that we had this pillow plus bolster fight with zhen on the bed. OH MAN ITS SO DAMN FUN :D haha we ended up falling on bed laughing cause its so super cranked up funny i tell ya, uh huh.
mhmm then went for dinner, then went back to her place again.
played forbidden love ! :) eugene was on the piano, zhen was on the guitar and i was on the RECORDER :\ haha, it sounded like some screwed up piece. it only sounded perfect on the piano, aww i so love it.

i wanna learn to play an instrument mann, recorder being the only instrument i can play is just so damn pathetic.
i did try drums, people were screaming for ear plugs.
i did try piano, shibin almost died teaching me.
i did try guitar, eugene was laughing the hell out of himself.
erm.

im keeping this short cause i needa go finish up bio mindmaps for the test thats on monday.
and there are like freaking five tests next week, hoho.
its times like this when you really feel that lifes a bitch.

I LOVE MY PRETTY BOYFRIEND :) aww, -smiles at zhen. haha







`there is no finish line
11:06 PM

 if you want to
i can save you
i can take you away from here
so lonely inside
so busy out there
and all you wanted was somebody who cares

blasting way away ; yellow card, my current favourite smashing hit.
someone tell me why im feeling this way.

:(
THE SILENCE IS DEAFENING-






`there is no finish line
9:56 AM
Friday, August 20, 2004
i felt the distance cut like a blade through my wrist
and the absence of you is leaving a hollow space in my heart
guess youre happy where you are but i cant help wishing you were here

i wore my socks really high over my ankle today, you cant afford to keep it low when teachers like luah love catching you for socks uh.
and oh 3a won the first prize for family day food stall compeition ! three day two night stay at safra plus three hundred bucks ! :D oh my goodness, -hugs nabi. haha im so excited i tell ya.

im starting not to understand emaths again, mr wong cant teach for nuts.
chinese was crap, got scolded by mdm shi blahblahblah :/
i applaude jiawei for his courage during english lesson.

miss hia : i dont understand why you people are not working hard enough and showing the results you ought to.
jiawei : [almost immediately] thats because you cant teach.

you should have seen miss hias face, oh boy need i say more.

recess then chem, seans a bugger. i hate the speed he does questions, i really detest it. im gonna tie him up the next chem i promise. r&d was nice, i like seeing other groups presentations and feel sad over ours cause its so damn pathetic :/ uh huh, sherri and i just found out something we have in common today. HAHA, -looks at sherri.
kay we were like walking to class together and mr firhad happened to walk just in front of us. yeah then sherri asked me this, 'when you look at firhad, what part of his body do you pay most attention to ? haha we both think that its his butt ? :) mhmm ! call us insane or whatever, we are just being girls alright, -giggles.

chinese remedials after school, i so hate seeing mdm shi again. she went min li this that this that AGAIN, sickening. then it started pouring and everything, training was cancelled. haha or rather i wasnt planning to train as yet, IM STILL SICK :) haha.
spent like the rest of the whole afternoon in the canteen with sherri mel karo :) i love girlie chit chats ! uh huh what kinda guys we like, what we wanna be in the future yada yada. we even tried pairing each other up with guys ? :) watched the basketball training, mike ongs damn funny. haha i love you triplets, loved our time together ! dont forget our date next sunday babes.

messages, i love it.
okay ill admit it, i really miss 2406.

i kinda got stuff to clear, so ciao ?

and if i promise not to feel this pain
will i see you again
cause i miss you so
and i need to know
will you wait for me



PASSED ME BY-


`there is no finish line
9:54 PM
Thursday, August 19, 2004
the years flash by
today melts to yesterdays memories

i just love on the way down, the way it just kept repeating itself in my head the whole of today rocks. uh and its playing on the player again, well WELL :)

schools nice, cruised through periods pretteh fast.
tsemin and i agreed to go on this whole week study camp during the september holidays which are just two weeks away, gearing up for battle boyy, i cant afford it anymore.

after school was a hell lot of fun, screaming and playing in the toilet ! :) HAHA.
-looks at zhen tsemin and babyy !
oh my goodness, i think we looked like four wet mad freaks compressed into a toilet cubicle yelling and laughing away, imagine that. its crazy darling, but we loved it.
N-19 ! -looks at them again, haha

sweeet ! my cutie just called ! :) aww, she misses me, she misses me ! haha, i miss you too cris. good luck for your beauuutiiiifullll art piece :) ILOVEYOU.

and oh caught the ronald susilo match yesterday ? utter disappointment. but i have to say the thai boonsak guys really good, hes super agile and tactful. i like seeing him do the around the back hit, style.
kay he did message later in the night, but oh well but babyy told me today it was because she told him to thats why he did. turnoff, turnoff, TURNOFF. forget it :(

kay mindy has to get studying, theres ting xie on tomorrow and assignments which would get her killed if not handed up. my heart goes out to all who are currently training under the, -looks out of the window, HOT sun now, i do share your pain girls ? :)

pork, takecare.
ciao.


`there is no finish line
5:16 PM
Wednesday, August 18, 2004
sick and tired of this world
theres no more air
tripping over myself
going nowhere
waiting
suffocating
no direction
and i took a dive

and on the way down
i saw you
and you saved me from myself
and i wont forget
the way you loved me

on the way down
almost fell right through
but i held onto you

ive been wondering why
its only me
have you always been inside
waiting to breathe
its alright
sunlight
on my face
i wake up and yeah
im alive

cause on the way down
i saw you
and you saved me from myself
and i wont forget
the way you loved me

on the way down
almost fell right through
but i held onto you

was caught up with olympics action, badminton and swimming events were on the whole afternoon. i cant wait for the ronald susilo match later at seven, that guys really something.

my sassy hasnt reply my message :( are you doing alright sweetheart ?

alright do me this huge favour everyone please ?
step 1 ; go to www.ryancabrera.com
step 2 ; turn your speaker volume way up
step 3 ; listen !
i loveeee this song to bits and pieces ! :) it reminds me of him.


AND I WONT FORGET THE WAY YOU LOVED ME-


`there is no finish line
6:25 PM

 when i look to the sky
something tells me youre here with me
and you make everything alright
and when i feel like im lost
something tells me youre here with me
and i can always find my way when you are here

chatting with my darling cutie sassy girlfriend cris now, she didnt go to school too cause she has some appointment at the hospital for her low blood pressure. TAKE CARE SWEETIE ! :)and dont worry too much yes ? -hugs

yeah firstly a big thank you to everyone who messaged or ringed me up to send your regards and stuff ? yupp im definitely feeling so much better and everything :)

kay im motivated to study, which i will be doing right after i get myself off the com seat.
just uploaded a few pictures to my album, can go take a look and also feel free to tag at my tagboard ? yeah.

oh and did i mention i saw mark zee at holland that other day ? and also vj utt at taka :) oh my goodness, drop dead gorgeous hunks, -faints. and speaking of hunks, check out the olympics swimming events. aww ! ian thorpe ! michael phelps ! :)


I LOVE THE LEMON TREE GUY
CHILL-


`there is no finish line
11:40 AM
Tuesday, August 17, 2004
call me crazy
call me blind
to still be suffering is stupid after all of this time

oh my goodness, tsemin jeraldine sherri zhen just called me on my house phone.
they screamed iloveyou over the line ! so super sweet :D
they were saying that the whole room was crying cause of what adam khoo said and the lesson today was great and all ? mann, now i kinda regretted not going.

wenta the doctors. my temperature was a shocking 38.8 : and my headache was so painful that i cried. doctor chang said its a suspected case of dengue fever. she gave me two days mc and i may have to take a blood test on thursday, plus eight pills per day :i hate BLOOD TESTS : they freaking freak me out.

so i practically rested the whole day on bed.
I CANT STAND NOISE- they only make my head hurt even more.
and the roadworks outside my house just had to start drilling today, dammit.

I LOVE MY FAMILY !
HUIZHEN !
JERALDINE !
TSEMIN !
SHERRIANNE !
[in alphabetical order]

you girlies made my day :) yupp i will take care of myself alright.

right, shall do up some overdued homework after dinner, ciao.

I MISS YOU-


`there is no finish line
7:35 PM

 shes just a loner with a sexy attitude

ive fallen really ill, uh huh so im home now while the class is attending the second day of study skills course.

okay activate the time machine ? :)

sunday ; 1408

PESTA SUKAN CARNIVAL ! :D
think we did really well, was very pleased with my performance. walked out every game with no regrets cause i did my very best :) i loved that sastifaction.
played eight games in all, lost three. like wow, those never heard before neighbourhood schools are rising up real fast. da mai was a thrasher, gaints. losing to katong covent was a heartbreaker, two points was what seperate us and them. and jun yuan was super lousy, i have no idea why we lost, by two, AGAIN :(
everyone was so pissed after the jun yuan match ?

"that wing defence fcuked the ball right at my face"
-SHERRIANNE CHOO HUI YI

"the goal keeper said haha so funny after i faked the shot" -roll eyes
-MARY NG HUI YING

"when the opponent do such stuff, just turn a deaf eye, turn a blind ear"
-COACH YEELEEN

haha i love match breaks.
we would get together and EAT :) its like a picnic.
and whos brown bag was that, -looks at sherri and burst out laughing :)

congrats to fms team one, they won all their matches except their first and made it to the top of their group, advancing to the second round :) brillant. and also fms team three, well done ? :) we ended up fourth in our group, losing to riverside, a team we won, by goal difference. FREAK.

showered up, bussed down to orchard. my dearest sheranne wong chu wen just refuses to let me sleep hurr. met up with tsemin at taka, then wenta heeren to check out watches.
TSEMIN LOVES THE BLACK TOUCH SENTIVE SWATCH SKIN !
MINDY LOVES THE COLOURFUL STRIPS ATHEN OLYMPICS EDITION SWATCH SKIN !
-screams at tsemin, right but we were some broke asses who cant afford them lahh.

we bought dcp shirts, tsemin doesnt believe me when i said pink looks sweet on her.
kay so when we were paying for our shirts, dumb me who was trying to staple my slipper strap to my slipper stapled the staple right deep into my thumb :\ :/ : oh my goodness, blood was oozing out like anything. the kind saleslady gave me a plaster ! winnie the pooh one ! haha WINNIE THE POOH CLAN ! :)
and yes, tsemin did helped by laughing her head off and repeating 'why you so stupid', thanks ya. -fake smile

mhmm, was at 77th street when sista called.
WHAT THE HELL, my house got broken into ! -grasps and cover mouth
thank God we installed the cctv security camera system, caught the burglar in action.
well, he only took away this new video recorder and nothing else. and the best thing about this everything was that mum was at home the whole while when it happened. ERM.

so shopped around, then took neoprints ! OH MY GOODNESS, so fun ! :D haha
as usual i looked uglyy lahh, tsemin was darling photogenic ! pretteh.

trained to jurong east to have dinner with parents, applied lots of moisturizers cause my sunburns were bad and painful, aww.
was up with my sista, watching television when all of the sudden the mini fridge door just flung wide open, definitely we freakked out darling.


monday ; 1608

study skills was really motivational and inspiring. i like the mr adam khoo guy, hes freaking funny :) but why in the world must he mention moles, SENSITIVE TOPIC ! haha.
wasnt really listening when jack and cherie took over, was talking with babyy. shes super super depressed and everything :( CHEER UP MY LITTLE PRINCESS ! mummys always here for you yes ?

dinner totally sucked, i agree with junqi saying that its meant for dogs.
then lessons again, this was when it all started.
my head started feeling heavy, very heavy. my vision was somewhat giddy, felt terrible. babyy massaged for me and everything, so sweeet ! watched the movie, was nice. then dad came to pick me up, i almost felt i fainted when i was walking towards his car, my heads spinning real bad. got home, was running a high fever, plus the throbbing painful headache, i felt horrid.

i dont know why but at that point of time i really felt like hearing his voice, his calm soothing voice. i wanna talk to him, i know i would feel happy in spite the pain, yet its somewhat foreign. the fact came resounding to me that we are or have become perfect strangers. who am i to call him like i did when i had cramps last july, who is he for me to want him to be there for me when im in pain. nothing, i hung up the phone.

tuesday ; 1708

its the seventeen :D
our last seventeen ..

im going straight to the doctors after a squeaky clean bath.
now for some quick tagboard replies ! :)

nessie ; (: ! i love my xiang gong
eileen ; nopey ! you dont have so many papas ! only one.. im still looking ! haha (: go make a blog, i wanna read.
vic ; thanks, and ncc guys seriously look dumb marching, QUACK (:
shengyang ; heyy heart talker ! haha havent talk to you for soo long ya ? credits to nessie, so pretteh right (:
samantha ; what did miss lee say about him ? and you didnt get me on it, i know he doesnt come here so mhmm ! -pulls down one eyelid. saw ur new template already, i love the picc ! (:
julia ; heyy shimu ! (:
zhen ; CRAP ! haha love ! (:
ling ; thankies zhong guo mei !
crisie ; -screams and jumps around the room. my cute sassy girlfriend, i love youu ! -waves. jiayous for Ns yes ? -hugs
mel ; darling smelly melly ! (: thank you thank you for your compliment, its a pity you didnt play, -frowns. love !

darn im feeling hot again.

FORBIDDEN LOVE-
lifes sucha drag, im thinking back to the last day we had.


`there is no finish line
11:40 AM
Saturday, August 14, 2004
when everything starts crashing down
when all i know falls to the ground
when darkness comes and i cant see
youre always there to rescue me

was fifteen minutes late for emaths test, and as a result i couldnt finish my paper in time.
and its definitely harder than the previous, hurr.
kay went home to get mr yaws keys then went back school again. was supposed to have breakfast with calvin but that guy wonderfully slept asleep thrice messaging me, so forget it ?
was watching all the ccas in action on the forth level, and wow i kinda like the atmosphere.
i have to say ncc guys really march like ducks, HAHA :)

kay so went queensway with tsemin, the designs of sport shoes are really ugly at the moment.
then cabbed to holland for oilkos. played captains ball and soccer, really fun :)
mhmm, then sharing. kim made me sandwhiches and zhen made me a nice nice NICE card cum bookmark ! :) haha im addicted to RESCUE ME ; PLANET SHAKERS ! -looks at zhen
its damn nice boyy.
played battle, im becoming pro kay. -looks at zhen and tsemin

im sorry jamie i didnt go for the drama production ? haha jinshun went for the 2pm one, wonder hows it.
right im actually talking to zhen online now, shes damn crappy ! :)
mann i needa sleep early cause carnivals on tomorrow.

STORM THE COURTS -


`there is no finish line
9:13 PM
Friday, August 13, 2004
cards and phone calls and photograph pictures of you
constant reminder of all the things you get used to
is there a chance in hell or heaven
that theres still something here to build on
or do you just pick up the pieces after they fall

haha after i went offline last night, i seriously did try to study chinese, i promise i did.
then i dont know why but i started drawing smileys with my orange marker on my toes ? :then tsemin called, mhmm she says she likes this swatch official olympics watch so we are going shopping this sunday :) hung up, then ling called. talked about how we so badly dont want chinese test ? haha yeah we were planning this riot thingie against mdm shi lahh, bravo.
jamie called, my darling fling baked potatoes for me ! :) -smiles.
and after everything, i fell asleep heads down on my shou ce :/

waited a darn long time for dumb 74 this morning, was almost late for school :
i hate sean lahh.
'die, surely get very low one'
'aiya, i wont do well for it'
in the end, a freaking nineteen for chem paper.

haha joel lokes group did this advertisement for their coffee project thats so funneh ? oh mann, its nice. right, our group cant wait for the stupid bell to ring cause we practically have nothing at all to pass up and oh man, linus was super funneh ! -rolls on the floor laughing

training was fine, the 45 minute court play killed everyone.
find that my team is somewhat weaker ? :( but well, jiayous girls.
i somehow feel ive lost my touch of the ball, like all of the sudden defending is such foreign. aargh kay im crapping. carnivals on sunday, meeting at 0645am at cityhall mrt ? boyy, there goes my sleep.
im somewhat excited for the carnival :) hardcore netball.

well, i really have to say something alright.
everyone and i mean everyone is asking me this.
IM ATTACHED TO MY DEAREST CUTE SASSY GIRLFRIEND, CHRISTABEL ! :D
uh huh :)

theres emaths test tomorrow, freak it.
this would be it, -runs off to study


`there is no finish line
10:02 PM
Thursday, August 12, 2004
so kiss me and smile for me
tell me that youll wait for me
hold me like youll never let me go
cause im leaving on a jet plane
i dont know when ill be back again

yesterdays timetable seriously rocked.
the whole day was so super slack, especially physics.
uh huh, miss ong made us stand outside the class cause we were late. very well, kinda like messaged the whole time :) -big fat smile.

was playing battleship with the girlies after school, oh my goodness, its damn fun ! :)
BOMB ! SINK ! :D hahaha
and yes benjamin song yong pang was our resource manager ! sweeet.
rushed down holland to meet beth for lunch, was nice :)
then cell group at zhens place, tsemin was darn hilarious during worship, like everyone was singing and we were giggling lahh ? : -stares at tsemin

left cell early, bussed down to orchard.
met up with sista, wenta shop for mumsies present ! :) got her this black heeled boots in the end, mums style. popped by mrs fields to get her brownie cake, then went taka to have dinner.
got home, cut cake blahblahblah, anyways !

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY ! :)

now today, was rushing homework like hell in the morning.
i loved english ! (: -looks at babyy.
haha and miss hia pinned up sam and mine article on our invention thingie, coool ! :)
AND I DAMMIT LOST MY WALLET DURING RECESS ! :\ not again.
kay for that cause i practically went mad after school, pardon me nessie and tsemin for tolerating with my nonsense, hurr. there goes my neoprints, money, cards and everything. holla.

training was fun yet tiring, drilled alot on defensive work.
raymond was so nice to pick me up and send me home ? :)

im officially attached ! :) haha yes, to SOMEONE :D
-waves goodbye to days of being single
im in love.

right, an eight chapter chinese test tomorrow.
hoho, good luck to me.


`there is no finish line
9:33 PM
Tuesday, August 10, 2004
why do you play me like a game

karo just had to post our sms conversation on her blog lah huh :\ and my girl arh, cute is not a word for me alright :) haha reading through her past entries and it amuses me how she can miss him flirting with her, im like : flirting stinks for hell sake.

well bought this book today, its called hmm 'he chose the nails'. been a while since i had a good book to indulge in so hope this would be it.

:)
:(
:
:/
:
im feeling so rotten boyy, dont ask me why.

uh huh i kinda hunted the locations of the security cameras, but according to my mother theres eight of them all around the house but i only found four ? well i need to know where they are so i know which are the zones i have to act guai in that kinda thing, -grins. haha still think this whole system is so lame. mum just wanna act high tech, thats all.

wow, was just clearing my mails when i found this. oh my goodness, it cracked me up.

U C Or(stin) Not--GEDDIT?

Mindy, U not sean(sian) already izzit? Every day ask You who You like. Then You purposely give the Wong(wrong) person. If you aren't, I am. I bet Teo-morrow(tomorrow) you still the same. Bhatnagah(but ah) why u never change. I buey Mohan(ta han), Elvin(even) then, why You still like that? Say(Nathaniel)lah, and make life much easier.Wan Ling(wa lao), its almost as if u ... Never mind. En/Joy/ the wordplay and dont delete. Unless u like the abovementioned ppl

HAHAHA. oh man fancy squeezing ten names into the above paragraph.
i still wont say ! (: haha but good try lahh, you score on the creativity side.

my CRISTABEL LAU YI XUAN is sucha darling :D love ! we are meant to be ! :)

PHYSICS TEST ! -screams and runs off


`there is no finish line
8:25 PM

 well ive no idea why im still online when i suppose to be studying.
talking to lim jin shun, that candy lahh.

right right RIGHT, false alarm.
there isnt chinese or historu test tomorrow, just physics :) -wipes sweat

im bored.
thinking of engraving a ring :)


`there is no finish line
11:54 AM

 even heroes have the right to bleed

yesterday was like a whole day mumsies day out kinda thing.
ahh, on the cab to taka, my ever so clever mum asked the taxi man
'uncle ah, today orchard road issit close because of the chingay parade arh ?'
im like oh my goodness, CHINGAY only happens during CHINESE NEW YEAR lahh mum, and today is national day. mann even the taxi driver was laughing :\ -covers face
lunched at some international buffet at taka, whopping full boyy :)
shopped a little, mum was looking for ERM, bikinis :\ what the.
kay so we bought tickets for house of flying daggers at cine, quite a good show. zhang ziyis freaking pretty alright and takeshi kaneshiro is sucha heart throb :)
cabbed down to bugis, went for manicure and pedicure, haha my nails feel super plastic :)
dad came to pick us up for dinner, went fish&co.

uh huh i just realise theres three tests tomorrow to welcome us back to school.
a eight chapter chinese test, a four chapter physics test AND a history test.
better go start now or ill be like so damn screwed ?

by the way my handphones back to my old number, the 4064 one ? :) mhmm !
over.


`there is no finish line
10:40 AM
Monday, August 09, 2004
you knew your lies would divide us
but you lied anyway

happy national day :)
right, nothing particular rocks except its a holiday. i guess a lot of people went down to the esplanade to catch the fireworks thing, they were saying its so pretty and everything ? :)

what i dont understand why
see its burning me to hold onto this
i know this is something i gotta do
but that dont mean i want to
what im trying to say is that i-love-you
i just i feel like this is coming to an end
and its better for me to let it go now than hold on and hurt you
i gotta let it burn

its gonna burn for me to say this
but its coming from my heart
its been a long time coming
but we dont been fell apart
really wanna work this out
but i dont think youre gonna change it
i do but you dont
think its best we go our separate ways
tell me why i should stay in this relationship
when im hurting baby
i aint happy baby
plus theres so many other things i gotta deal with
i think that you should let it burn

when the feeling aint the same and your body dont want to
but you know gotta let it go cause the party aint jumping like it used to
even though this might bruise you
let it burn
let it burn
gotta let it burn

deep down you know its best for yourself but you
hate the thought of her being with someone else
but you know that its over
we know that its through
let it burn
let it burn
gotta let it burn

sending pages i aint supposed to
got somebody here but i want you
cause the feeling aint the same
find myself calling her your name
ladies tell me do you understand
now all my fellas do you feel my pain
its the way i feel i know i made a mistake
now its too late
i know she aint comin back
what i gotta do now
to get my shorty back
man i dont know what im gonna do
without my boo
youve been gone for too long
its been fifty-leven days, um-teen hours
i will be burning till you return

when your feeling aint the same and your body dont want to
but you know gotta let it go cause the party aint jumping like it used to
even though this might bruise you
let it burn
let it burn
gotta let it burn
deep down you know its best for yourself but you
hate the thought of ever being with someone else
but you know that its over
we know that its through
let it burn
let it burn
gotta let it burn

im twisted cause one side of me is telling me that i need to move on
on the other side i wanna break down and cry

really love this one, burn ; usher.
its kinda like my soul song ? every single word is so how i feel.

i guess im coming to terms as to what i really what it to be.
one thing i know, i would always be fond of you, in every single way you are.
and i love the fact i found someone like you who really is what i want in a guy.
but its only right for me to replace the word love with pure simple liking, the way i did when i first got to know you.
if its meant to be, it will.
umakudnirlotrebuka



`there is no finish line
9:54 AM
Sunday, August 08, 2004
your good intentions slowly turn to bitterness
reoccuring episode with each and every kiss

push the rewind button with me alright, back to yesterday.
uh huh so i did went down to essential brews in the end, with my dear xiang gong nessie loh. shared fish and chips, chilled :) then window shopped around, haha she kinda explained to me why guys prefer boxers to briefs, im like OH I SEE that kinda thing. HAHA.
then went downta church, received a lot from the sermon. it made me understand certain things. chow in bought kim a mini cake and flowers, by the way
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIM :)

bussed down orchard with eugene, went mos burger to get their super delicious FROZEN STRAWBERRIES ! :) haha then we kinda walked from one end to another, in search for cross necklaces. the one at perlini silvers freaking nice boy, eugene likes it too.
hmm then went cine to take neos, met fiona jan and fiona sista on the way AND the whole bunch of councillors at the neoprint shop itself. oh my goodness, jocelyn song that silly kept teasing lahh :\ and that cai jun feng guy kept peeping into the neoprint machine when we were taking :\ settled for cards in the end, mann i looked weird in it.
went apple centre at wheelocks, grave mistake. -screams at eugene
THE PASTEL PINK IPOD MINI IS DAMMIT PRETTEH ! :D
oh my goodness, -faint. its so difficult to get my hands off the iPod mini that was on display. and yes, can i kill eugenelekzhenghao please.

eugene : isnt the emac nice ?
mindy : ya, the price too.
eugene : my mum says shes gonna buy for me.
mindy : what the heck :/
-walks over
eugene : the ibook nice hor ?
mindy : mhmm, but dont tell me your mum getting for you arh.
eugene : she is.
mindy : -jaws drop, what about the iPod ?
eugene : i most probably will.

whats this mann huh tell me, -strangles at eugene.
haha kay we took all the brochures we ever could and left.
got home, bathed and everything. dad brought us to some hotel for dinner, he insisted i wore my brown dress, ERM : the food was very average really, got back near midnight.

so today, studied at essential brews with jamie :) my camp fling ! haha.
shes gonna have her prelims like real soon and shes so relaxed about it.
had dinner with family and yupp im back.

gosh, mum got this cctv security camera system installed.
it makes me feel so restricted as in everything i do in the house is reflected in the mini tv she has in her room ? : alamak, -slaps forehead.
uh huh, was just down at the kitchen getting myself a cup of sprite then my wonderful mum intercom the kitchen and blasted 'did i just say you are not supposed to touch cold drinks' :/
im like 'wow mum, thats kinda fast', o-kay so placed the bottle of sprite back to the fridge :(
haha yeah and she replaced all the plastic ikea bins in the house with automatic sensor bins, those where the lids goes up whenever you are ten cm or nearer to the bin ?
i wonder whats shes gonna do next boy, er escalators from storey one to two ? :/





IM LOSING IT
like this-


`there is no finish line
10:43 PM
Saturday, August 07, 2004
and time has been spread so thin

blasting music, couple of really nice songs at the moment.
i badly wanna head down essential brews now for a chill boy. but you see, this girl me is just so financially unable to. the most i can order is erm plain water ? : now, teachers really think us to be supermans and superwomans dont they, a mere four day holidays results in this whole mountain of assignments called homework.
theres practically homework for every subject, that sucks. -screams and covers face

oh my goodness, chatting with jinshun online is sucha a pleasure. haha hes just freaking cute :)

looking back ;


`there is no finish line
10:02 AM
Friday, August 06, 2004
when two worlds collide

oh my goodness, -screams, i typed this pretteh long post last night and the moment i click the post icon my com just had to hang on me :/ dammit.

right so yesterday, i kinda like the emaths slide mr wong showed us, interesting :)
mhmm then fast forward the day, chem test after school.
at first seans desk and mine were like only 2mm apart lahh ? uh huh then mrs ang just had to pull us apart :/ the test was wonderful, dammit. im so confident, of failing it -weak smile. haha was looking through shengyangs scripts, oh my he practically handed up blank papers lahh ? -shaky smile.

headed down holland with tsemin, had nasi lemak. i do think i have something against tau pok ! :) -looks at tsemin. haha guess what, we saw the channel eight star chen li ping. wow shes sure big sized mann.
then wenta ESSENTIAL BREWS. oh my goodness, i fell in love with that place :)
its super classy, super stylish, super cosy, super groovy, one word, NICE ! :) love the deco, love the atmosphere, love the layout, love the ambience ! :) its gonna be high on my hangout list mann, gosh it so rockks.
mhmm ! love the ommph drink ! yummilicious darling.
its a blend of green tea and milk and oats, five stars plus two thumbs up !
yeahh so tsemin and i practically spent the rest of the day there, chilling out chatting, about her problems and stuff. DONT THINK TOO MUCH KAY ; LOVE ! :)

national day celebrations were lame, besides mr wee there wasnt really anyone singing those songs. well, team B was fun to play with, won 6-5 and that qianhui girl was screaming draw, what the, -roll eyes. my my, i almost died laughing after seeing how mr firhad plays captains ball. HAHA :) its damn gay.
debrief was unbearable, super hot.
played captains ball after that, was fun :) edwin and alvin were doing some really funny fanciful one-twos with each other. then mike ong self-include himself into the game, like no one pass the ball to him lahh ? pathetic.
went holland bk for lunch with zhen and tsemin, then chilled at ESSENTIAL BREWS, -bleams ! :D
had a grreat time with the girls lahh, ate kinda alot though we were so full ? gobbled one tofu steak, baby garlic potatoes. mhmm, i had my oomph ! zhen had mango sunrise and tsemin got herself a choc and hazel blend :)
cracked silly jokes, did silly stuffs ! -looks at zhen and tsemin
haha uh huh, and lim tsemin that piggie. i was at the toilet and she crawled in and grabbed my leg ! oh my gosh, i screamed like hell lahh :/
zhen and tsemin was like laughing for whole three minutes, darn.
played truth or dare ? LITTLE SECRETS ! :) hee

bussed down to meet nessie at town, shopped a great deal :)
nessie bought herself a pair of pretty maryjanes, i kinda like this white flats too but im broke :/
walked a lot, talked a lot, laughed a lot. especially nessie lahh, shes kinda high today :)
NIANGZI LOVES XIANG GONG :)

better get running, ciao.

how come ;


`there is no finish line
11:05 PM
Wednesday, August 04, 2004
the faster we were falling
we were stopping and stalling
we were running in circles again

what the heck, the whole chinese group aka the strawberry arranged to meet in the canteen at 800am, i was there at 810am and the whole canteen was freaking empty, hoho. kay they slowing drifted in one by one, fooled around quite a bit before we got started. thank you nessie and sheranne cause they went over dover to get breakfast for us ? KAYA TOAST (:
then wenta assemble and stuff, mann my little sharkie felt real ill :\ TAKE CARE KAY (:
the whole service was pretty nice lah, from songs to the speeches to presentation, uh huh.

went holland for lunch with jiawei, had bak cho mee at the foodcourt (: nice conversations, chatting ups with each other and all, revolved around our dreams, struggles and life. chatted till about four ? mhmm then head down for cell at derricks place.
didnt really like cell today, its kinda depressing listening to eugene.
mann, it never occured to me that hes undergoing such immense stress and unhappiness as in he looks so fine but had chaos in his mind. guess i kinda neglected him and our friendship the past months, didnt even offered to be there through his lowest times and all.
im sorry, really am.
was just chatting online with him just, haha was typing so super fast my fingers ached.

alright, everyones messed up.
goh hui zhen ; take care take care take care alright (:
karolyn gan ; you little thingie, TAKE CARE (:
jeraldine koh ; dont cry ! no one dares to bully my little princess alright. PIGLET (:
vanessa loh ; follow your heart xiang gong ! (:
melissa tan ; glad youre feeling better ? love ! (:
sherrianne choo ; aiya pretteh little butch, dont be too affected by it kay ? TAKE CARE (:
eugene lek ; ill always be there to lend you my listening ear ? ring me up when you need anything kay ? take care silly (:

and mindy ng, you gotta breakthrough.
get this freaking stuck in your head, YOU CANT LOVE HIM.

empower me ;


`there is no finish line
9:35 PM
Tuesday, August 03, 2004
i wont worry my life away

on the line with tsemin, hung up with jeraldine just.
am like in this ra ra mood cause tomorrows a half day without lessons, uh huh (:

todays great.
wenta holland starbucks to chill out plus study with nessie.
had a grreat time yes ? (: -smiles at nessie
haha did ying yong wen, studied chem ! mhmm ! (:
gosh nessie and i kinda died, the cigarette smoke was overpowering.
uh huh we did funny things, laughed like shit ?

I LOVE XIANG GONG ! (:

anyhows, happy birthday junqi (:

think im starting lose it.
its fading.

i wanna breathe ;


`there is no finish line
10:01 PM
Monday, August 02, 2004
all my bags are packed
im ready to go
im standing here outside your door
i hate to wake you up to say goodbye

my hearts kinda heavy today, kept thinking back to last night.
well, i loved last night. those messages, that fun, the smile that draws on my face when the message ringtone sounded.

'can i demand you to be in bed ?'
'can i demand me to say goodbye to you, my last goodbye ?'

just realised, dont want to and have to are two totally different things.
dont want to but have to.
:(

practically wasnt doing anything for the day, i either stone or daydreamed.
guess it was just the usual feel of missing, and the added burden of the harsh reality that i gonna let it go, my heart it aches.

the radio thingie was pretty cool, mhmm.
then umpired the ultimate frisbee games till 645, had fun.
haha there was this cute sec 2 guy, he got knocked down by a opponent and he was like 'referee ! that guy snobernorker me !' with that innocent little face. mann, cant help but laugh lahh :)

theres chem test tomorrow, i for hell gotta pass it.
-nods head

tell me they rock ;
she will be loved ; maroon 5
on the way down ; ryan cabrera
overdrive ; cady rose

happy birthday sheranne !
take care karo, love.


`there is no finish line
9:27 PM
Sunday, August 01, 2004
trying so hard to disregard
the rhythm of the rain that drops
coincides with the beating of my heart

happy birthday pamelakohyunxiang ! (:

damn, mum doesnt allow me to go for pams birthday party later at two ? :( im so sorry girl, hafta give it a miss, -frowns.

alright, things i gotta do by the end of august
> get my ass on the cinema seat watching MEAN GIRLS (:
> clear belated brithday presents
> get a new wallet
> pull my fringe daily to make sure it grows at least an inch longer
> have the hot pink adidas graffiti superstar struck off my wishlist
> start off with endofyears revision
> get over him

mhmm ! ive got exactly thirty days to do all of the above.
well the last one .. :( wo hui xue zhe fang qi ni, shi ying wei wo tai ai ni. its kinda been on my mind the past few weeks already, decided that thats the best last thing i could do for him.

so i rather go through all the pain
then to see you get hurt once again

i just want you to be happy, really.
dont want you to be bounded by me persistently waiting
dont want you to be trapped inside the web of guilt
it takes me courage to let go, to tell the world i no longer love you.
though deep in my heart i know i never wanted to, but thinking of the happier person you would be makes it all worth while.

let me go, with ease.

it aches ;


`there is no finish line
9:20 PM


and i wont forget the way you loved me ;
mindy 2july1989 netballer seventeen
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